1 Corinthians 13:11
“When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways.”
Tonight I’m in the mood to write to you guys something that as humans and christian we fall a lot into and that is comparing ourselves to such high standards that we are never going to be able to meet by ourselves. Tonight’s as I was thinking what I wanted to post on my Instagram page I noticed that every time I see a youth that is so highly popularized and sought after in social media because their ministry is getting bigger and bigger by the second and minutes. I belittle myself and I think to myself if that were “Me” and I just wish I could be them. And no it’s not envy because I love supporting ministry that spread God’s gospel.
For me it’s the not knowing; the relentlessness that comes upon me when I see ministry upon ministry rise up and mine is still in the early stages of pregnancy. When it’s just starting to get created it has not even being formed yet but the relentlessness of wanting to do more and go bigger it’s consuming and overpowering a lot of times. God has called me on a prophetic ministry some of you might not believe it, some might and some will not understand. I believe deep in my heart I was set apart since an early age even before I was formed in my mother’s womb as God has told me various times. But as I scrutinize my heart and I look deep down to my soul; I know I’m not ready yet for the purpose he has for me.
Why do we as christians are never acceptable to God’s timing? Something that I tell my mother and a lot of my youth is to never try to help God but I forget most of the time to apply it to myself. As a human being I am flaw but that those not take God’s love and purpose away from me. I was looking into the life of the prophet Ezekiel and Jeremiah and other servants of the Lord and I have noticed that most of them did not die in their homeland. That God called them to their ministry when they were ready and they had passed the beginning stages of their ministry. Jeremiah was one of the most fundamental prophets in the Old Testament; God used him tremendously in warning the people Israel of their idolatry and what would become of the nation of Israel if they didn’t repent and went back to the old ways with the Lord. But he lived a life of persecution and most often a life that brought heartbreak to him.
“But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am only a youth’; for to all to whom I send you, you shall go, and whatever I command you, you shall speak.”
My life and ministry have not gone through those stages that many servants of the Lord have gone through. My process might not be the same as theirs; however I see in many of the youth today the potential to go even higher than the prophets of the Old Testament and new one too. I wonder to myself if I’m prepared for this journey that will transcend my life into a different stratosphere. I will not be the same nor will I think or see and even speak the same as today. What really am I? Am I ready for this next step to this journey…
P.S. Don’t give up if you see that your ministry is still in the early stages; keep waiting and believing I know it’s hard but I believe its not impossible with the Lord. Thank you for reading my ramblings and for supporting this ministry online; I’m seeing God’s hand move in here like never before, I hope you are too through the posts. Leave me a comment below; do you find yourself in the same situation a lot?.