What do you do when you feel like there is no answer?
When you see the ugliness of your mistakes and iniquities facing you everyday?
When you can’t speak up because you are afraid of the judgement that will come down on you?
You want my tears, every messy word
Every scar and every fear
You want all I have
With no holding back
When I’m hurt, at my worst
You meet me there
‘Cause you see the beauty
In my broken prayers
In my broken prayers
– Broken Prayers (Riley Clemmons)
Life is beauty when everything is squeaky clean, in order and polished that when people see us the only see that side but never what’s underneath. A lot of days I feel like the broken and lost child that I was several years ago…and my prayers feel like they fall in deaf ears. I have constant moment of irrational fear where I feel like my burdens and my insecurities need to be bottled up. Because I feel the need to present a facade of togetherness where I just want to run to a cliff and scream and scream until all that I feel can be exposed into existence. I’m the seasoned warrior that wants to give up and hide in a cave and never come out.
There is no shadow you won’t light up
Mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me
there is no wall, you won’t kick down,
lie you won’t tear down, coming after me.
What do you do when you don’t feel the breeze or hear the voice of your beloved. And if in the deepest part of your soul you wish for that voice to say I’m here but you can’t hear nor can see. Beauty that you have never seen but you have believed that lived and died in the cross. My shackles and chains have been freed and I’m proof that grace and love can win.If my faith were like the mustard seed that would grow and grow. Maybe what I’m missing is learning to love myself through my insecurities, my ups and down that same way you love me.
P. S. I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter and that from this Easter you are resurrected as a new you just as Jesus was resurrected. Shalom💕💕I will be posting my dating post this week stay tuned and show some love down below👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻 I will be waiting for the comments on what everyone did this Easter; we celebrate Easter in a quiet way 💕💕God Bless & Love you all💕💕 thank you for supporting this ministry🌸