It has been 4 hard months of sadness and lack of faith. These months have been months I have humbled myself and have cried out to God in the most raw way. Months were my faith lacked and my sadness overpowered me, where I could not see the way out and I did not want to see a way out. Months that I questioned my calling, my purpose but most of all questioned God’s Love.
In Psalms chapter 55 verse 22 the following states;
“Cast your burden on the LORD, And He shall sustain you; He shall never let the righteous to be moved.”
Months that instead of receiving a word of encouragement I would receive people’s opinions and words of humiliation. Moments where my existence looked dark and felt suffocating and my feelings were all over the place from sadness to joy and joy to anger and back to sadness. Moments were worship was a feeling of emptiness and left me more in that dark place that I was pushed into.
Months were I questioned God’s’ love towards me due to the trial that I was going through. Even though I knew that what I was going through was necessary for me to grow spiritually as well personally. God tests your limits and your faith in ways that are unexpected to you and in times where you are at your most comfortable place. God will put the right people beside you that will push you to move forward from that place where you feel you have been stuck at with a way out. Will give the feeling of fullness and feeling of being enough as well-being capable without hearsay of others. While others will belittle who you are and humiliate you to feel better about themselves God does not let his son/ daughter to be moved from where he has placed them at.
There is a saying there is always a David behind a Saul. And, yes but each David and each Saul will be tested and refined to be the vessel that God will use for a purpose. Don’t belittle who you are in God’s hands nor you belittle someone else because you think you can do it better than them. Always bless the one before you and always bless the one behind you because at the end of the day only God provides and takes away.
P.S. I missed writing and I’m so glad to be back, will try to get up to date as soon as possible. Thank you for supporting me on this ride. God bless♥️ Shalom🕊