Righteous or Not

It has been 4 hard months of sadness and lack of faith. These months have been months I have humbled myself and have cried out to God in the most raw way. Months were my faith lacked and my sadness overpowered me, where I could not see the way out and I did not want to see a way out. Months that I questioned my calling, my purpose but most of all questioned God’s Love.

In Psalms chapter 55 verse 22 the following states;

Cast your burden on the LORD, And He shall sustain you; He shall never let the righteous to be moved.

‭‭Months that instead of receiving a word of encouragement I would receive people’s opinions and words of humiliation. Moments where my existence looked dark and felt suffocating and my feelings were all over the place from sadness to joy and joy to anger and back to sadness. Moments were worship was a feeling of emptiness and left me more in that dark place that I was pushed into.

Months were I questioned God’s’ love towards me due to the trial that I was going through. Even though I knew that what I was going through was necessary for me to grow spiritually as well personally. God tests your limits and your faith in ways that are unexpected to you and in times where you are at your most comfortable place. God will put the right people beside you that will push you to move forward from that place where you feel you have been stuck at with a way out. Will give the feeling of fullness and feeling of being enough as well-being capable without hearsay of others. While others will belittle who you are and humiliate you to feel better about themselves God does not let his son/ daughter to be moved from where he has placed them at.

There is a saying there is always a David behind a Saul. And, yes but each David and each Saul will be tested and refined to be the vessel that God will use for a purpose. Don’t belittle who you are in God’s hands nor you belittle someone else because you think you can do it better than them. Always bless the one before you and always bless the one behind you because at the end of the day only God provides and takes away.

P.S. I missed writing and I’m so glad to be back, will try to get up to date as soon as possible. Thank you for supporting me on this ride. God bless♥️ Shalom🕊

Restitution in the Father’s House➕

God bless to all of you, today’s blog post I will speaking on a word that God has put in my heart.The Holy Spirit directed me to read and read again the parable of the prodigal son. This parable is over preached, studied and spoken all the time and it’s reason has a lot to do with the message that brings forth; a message of mercy, love and forgiveness.

However, in today’s post the message won’t be about that; it’s a message about restoration and healing. Now when I mean restoration I’m not speaking about financial restoration nor restitution as his story starts that way but in the healing and the freedom that the prodigal son received.

The prodigal son’s parable has similarities as the lost sheep parable. Both the father and the Shepherd rejoiced in seeing his son and sheep found and brought back to them alive. While both parables lets us see the consequences of the going with our wants and the desires of the world, the prodigal son’s parable gives us a more in-depth look into what was going through his mind.

“Not many days later; the younger son gathered all he had and took a journey into a far country, and there he squandered his property in reckless living”

One thing I have noticed today , well in my generation is this. I remember in my younger days that my way of thinking was “once I hit 18th ; I’m out of here. I’m free to be who I’m supposed too; live life the way I want.” Once we hit the age of eighteen we try to devour life the same way that the prodigal son did to his inheritance and that has brought or will bring consequences to our lives. Why, you may ask ? Because we try to live life to the fullest without the principles that have been provided over the years by our parents; we try to find fulfillment in materialis or pleasurable things. I have been fault to that way of thinking; I burnt myself out trying to please the world, when there is no way of pleasing it.

God, in his mercy has provided for us parables or situations in the Bible where we are confronted with our way of thinking. The prodigal son found no solution in the world, instead he found bondage, emptiness and destruction. When will the time be where this new generation will be able to see that fulfillment does not come in the form of being famous nor being settled into a career nor is it going through life as if it were going to disappear but instead of searching for that fulfillment in God. I have seen the impossible become possible when we allow God to enter in our lives.

“And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.”
‭‭Luke‬ ‭15:21‬ ‭

The prodigal son found his fulfillment after being set free and restored in his father’s house. Being restored in the place that corresponded to him not someone else, found his freedom when he understood that he had failed his father just as many of us have failed God in many ways. God has been and will always be a faithful God; while his creation will always be unfaithful until he comes. And still he loves and restores us when we are not worthy of such mercy.

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Devotional➕🕊

I say I cannot go further,

But your Holy Spirit tells me don’t give up my child..

When the i look upon the pit of darkness that tries to claim me,

My soul cries in hunger for you Lord…

Where can I hide from you Lord?

There’s no places I can can hide from your presence Lord.

If I were to climb the highest mountain; your presence is there,

If were to go down to the bottomless sea your presence will be there Lord.

My fears and iniquities are laid before your presence, my robes are being washed clean by your tears.

Your blood has washed me clean and your love has healed the open wounds that have formed in my soul, your love has been the healing that this parched soul was in need off.

In the moment of my despair, your hand was upon me delivering from the trap that the enemy had laid before me,

You have govern my life with unending love, mercy and grace. Incline your ear Lord, to the petitions of my heart, let my heart be not troubled anymore.

Let your presence be the balm in this desolate place in need of your guidance.Let your bride reset in the presence of her bridegroom, govern my life oh Lord.

Let your word be the seal in which my life is govern with and your presence be the light the guides my life.

Testimony➕🗣

God Bless everyone on this beautiful day. Sorry I been MIA for this couple of weeks but it’s with immense joy and deep gratitude that I’m writing this blog post. I’m the type of person that firmly believes in spreading the good news to everyone and let me tell you that I really have great news to share with all of you today. I know many of you have been with me and this blog since the beginning and I want to thank those that have united but I would not be here nor would I be able to share this good news without God.

We Are Home Owners!!!!

As many of you know I have shared with all of you our process of buying our new house in some posts since the beginning. It was a long process where we did not see the end of the tunnel nor did we see the blessing that would be waiting for us. I cannot tell you how many roadblocks presented themselves during this process, and it was a process where our faith was tested. There were tears of frustration, tears of excitement and tears of joy. Since the moment we started searching for a home to buy, there were roadblocks; whichever house we liked that house would be sold the next day or people will not accept the proposals that were sent. Let’s not even talk about the process for the loan; actually, let’s do it because you will see how God moved in this.

My father and mother applied for a loan together and that process was so long and difficult. The bank required that they have references from their job and the landlord from whom they rented. Let me tell you that there were issues with the job and worse the landlord from whom they had rented for 9 years; he did not want to give the reference. This delayed the process more; our closing date was pushed back three times. We were completely done with the whole process the last time they pushed back the closing date; my father had already decided to cancel the whole thing. But my mother had a dream in the beginning of December; where she saw that they received their keys until the month of January. At this time we were still with the first closing date for the 14th of December but after that was pushed back and the second was pushed back and then the third we understood that it was not in our timing but Gods’.

On January 17th they were finally able to close on their house and in that moment that they were signing their paperwork; I could see in my mother’s expression that it was worth the 9 years of prayer over this home. In my father’s expression is was worth the hard work and the saving of money. Truthfully God’s hand was at move during this whole process even in our day of moving; my mother says that God sent angels that day to help us move. It took us two drives to move everything to the new house and in the first, the ones uploading and downloading the stuff was only my father, mother, and I. But God came through by sending some family members and even people from our church to help by the second drive.

Isaiah 41: 18

I will open rivers on the barren heights, and fountains in the middle of the valleys. I will turn the desert into a pool of water, and the dry land into flowing springs.

As I was preaching on Saturday in our youth service, your affliction becomes your blessing. The desert becomes your blessing; it’s where you grow spiritually, mentally and emotionally. You learn to rely on God for everything. This process taught us that relying on God is always right; who is better than him to help you in moments of doubt, tribulation, and fear. As my father was giving the testimony about two services back he said that it’s painful to be mistreated by others maybe for no reason or because of fear, hatred or pain; but that God was seeing everything and he offered the comfort and gave the strength in those moments and he will give you the blessings that you are requesting him in his timing.

P.s. Sorry for being absent for so long, but moving and all that comes with that takes pretty much over your life🙄 I hope that this post will help you keep moving forward in whatever process that you may be in at this moment. God never forgets nor forsakes.

2019 A Year Of Victory

Happy 2019 to all of you! 2018 has been a ride of ups and downs; also a year of growth and change within the blog, my spiritual life as well ministry. I can’t thank 2018 enough because it helped me see the flaws within me as well helped me overcome many obstacles that rose up. I finished 2018 declaring victory over all petitions; over conquering the tribulation, murmuring and fear that would not let go. 2019 you will be the year full of victories over the chains that will be broken, over the souls, my ministry, over our house, my family and my job. Last year taught me that it’s not “I” but God who has everything in control.

This year God is testing me in this area; just recently someone told me this ” You are not my leader, and you are not a very good one at all” That sentence came out of nowhere; that little sentence made me doubt the months and years of God working in my life; of the tribulations, over the progress that God has done in my life, made me ask myself what I was lacking but most importantly made me doubt God and his purpose. I kept asking myself these questions, why am I not enough? what’s wrong with me? why am I not seeing any progress? and the door to self-doubt was opened.

To my mind came words of comfort asking me why was I listening to someone that has not even started their own process, have not even begun their journey into the desert. God was comforting me and rebuking me because it’s not what they say, it’s not what they want. God raises leaders that meet the needs of the people but don’t conform to their wants. If Joshua and every other single leader that God lifted had done what the people wanted where would God had glorified himself.

I remember just telling that person; ” that’s fine” and leaving but later that day just crying and asking God so many questions, and to my mind came the story of Joshua and what he went through with the people of Israel; they did not see a leader in him but through him, God gave them the victory of their land. Through him, God rose an army of warriors, through him God did wonders and miracles in the sky.

The LORD told Joshua, “Today I will begin to make you a great leader in the eyes of all the Israelites. They will know that I am with you, just as I was with Moses.

You are what God chose and is making you be, don’t let what anyone says affect you. One thing I do ask and that is that you respect the leadership of the person that is over you. Not because it’s mandated but because, how can you ask God to use you if you do not respect your leader? Why would God lift or even use someone prideful when even the bible says that the prideful he sees from afar and the humble from near. If you are able to respect the leader before you then you are able to respect the one over all of us which is God.

P.C. I hope that this year is a year of blessings but most importantly a year where you see God’s hand move over the small and big victories that will come your way.

Rejoicing➕

Good morning y’all, 

I really need to invest in a laptop or maybe it’s the new version of WordPress that is making things difficult for me, I’m really not that into technology but it has been harder for me to grammar check everything and with all this blocks that were added to WordPress just makes me not want to write 😞 but I’m gonna be good and write at least two blog post this week because, we had snow so I got time to write and not be at work.  But I have not forgotten about the called with a purpose series I just took a break from that as I been a lot busy and I like to get in deep in the word and do my research, I do not like writing just to post something;  my post need to be meaningful or bring something to your lives. It can either be words of encouragement, exhortation or just plain give you a word that God has put in my heart. 

Today I just want to catch up with you guys and let you know what our youth ministry has been up to. Our youth ministry has had a few activities in this past weeks, we had from a revival to game night and God has worked in those activities. But I seen youth being called to their ministry ; to youth truly becoming worshippers and youth being helpfull to the ministry. God is raising up youth that want to work in the ministry either being on the altar or at the bottom, no one has to be out to the side. I’m seeing youth that go into the deepness of God’s presence during church service as well youth services.

“Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity.”
‭‭1 Timothy‬ ‭4:12‬ ‭

This Saturday game night featured from bible questions, Speak out, heads up, to musical chairs.What are you doing inside the church? Your ministry? Outside? Your community? I want to know what y’all have been up to. I was finally able to upload the video thanks to my friend AMANDA👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻-girl you rock 💕💕- this post was from last week I forgot to schedule it to publish automatically at a certain day 😂😂

Revelation➕⚔️

Good Afternoon 

I really do not know if I should write about this but the Holy Spirit is leading me so I will be obedient; and tell you about the experience I had this morning. I do not know if this word is for one of you or this word is for myself or my church in general,  but I hope that this word gives you the confirmation that you need if it’s for you. 

God speaks in so many ways and for me this morning he spoke to me through dream that felt more like a vision and he gave me the name of the book, chapter and verse for a message. I’m waiting for confirmation of course but something inside of me it’s telling me to write about it and share it with you guys. I’m not that person who is spiritually all the time and God rarely uses me in this area but when it’s from God; whatever he shows me comes true. 

“And I heard a voice from heaven saying, “Write this: Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on.” “Blessed indeed,” says the Spirit, “that they may rest from their labors, for their deeds follow them!””
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭14:13‬ ‭

There are many who don’t believe that God can use you this way. I remember I wrote a post about limiting the Holy Spirit- No limit to the Holy Spirit– you can find it in the archives; however God can you use in ways you have never imagined if you allow yourself to be used but remember that there is always a price to pay to be used that way. The men and women of God paid  the price to be used in such a way but this generation in that area is lacking. 

 This morning  God spoke to me in the book of Revelations  chapter 14; but the specific verse that he gave me was verse 13. I’m my dream I’m at church and the pastor is preaching but I’m hearing this sentence being said repeatedly in my ear Revelations 14:13. I woke up around 7 am for work but I was let known our offices were closed due to the snow storm that came through yesterday in NC. So I went back to sleep and God gave me this dream, and I kept hearing just that word so I grabbed my bible and started to read chapter 14 of revelations and it talks about the 144,000, message of the three angels and the harvest of the earth.

The first two messages pretty much speaks about the 144,000 that were not contaminated through the false allegations that the beast is Christ and the judgement that will come upon the earth.  We are in the time where false doctrines are raising up and poeple are being lead astray from the true path of God. What are we doing in not letting that happen. Are we doing what has been commanded of us? Or are we letting opportunities as well time pass by without doing what has been demanded that we do.  Maybe you are thinking that you have no word to say or that your insignificant to other big preachers, leaders, worshippers or just general church members, if God has called you is with a purpose. You are not meant to be what they are and I have learned that the hard way. Each one of us have a different ministry but that does not make us little. Stop seeing yourself as others see you but start seeing yourself as God sees you, something precious and something powerful in his eyes. 

P.s. I hope that this message if it’s for you, has spoken to you. Let’s continue to pray for the church worldwide it’s time to wake up and do what has been commanded of us. Many will be lead astray but it’s our job to prevent that from happening. Reach out to your community by praying, preaching and spreading the word that God has put in your heart. Thank you for supporting this blog, many of you have commented on my posts that God has spoken to you through them and you really don’t know how much that means to me💕 Shalom🕊

As you can see I love the snow, being sick didn’t stop me from going out and playing as also taking pictures😂🙈

We got about 15 inches of snow and it’s still snowing 🌨