Giving Thanks 🙏🏼 / Ten Lepers

img_2159Yesterday night was prayer night at my church but before we went into praying; a brother from church brought a small word on the book of Luke about the ten men who had leprosy and Jesus healed them.

12 As he was going into a village, ten men who had leprosy met him. They stood at a distance 13 and called out in a loud voice, “Jesus, Master, have pity on us!”

This chapter in the book of Luke is pretty deep if we actually dwell a little deeper into the word. As the brother who was preaching yesterday was giving quite a few points about this chapter and the reactions of the men, all that God was speaking through him I was thinking and saying to myself this is so true.

Jesus met these ten lepers on his way to Jerusalem, but what caught my attention as the brother was reading was in verse 12; where it says that the men “stood a distance, and lifted up their voices.” As many of you know Jesus was followed everywhere he went by multitudes of people, it was pretty hard for him to walk the roads as everyone wanted to be healed by him. However, these men saw Jesus coming from a distance my question is; How could they have possibly seen him? Just imagining myself being there I cannot comprehend how these men were able to see Jesus from such a distance. Maybe it was the multitude that gave Jesus away or his garments or could it possibly be the way he walked.?

However, it was their faith that made it possible for them to see the Teacher walking by and them asking for mercy. They were not healed at that same spot where they had been waiting instead, they were walking to go to the priests as Jesus had commanded them to do and they were being cleaned. They believed that they would be and they were but out of the ten lepers only one after seeing that he was healed; came back and gave thanks to Jesus for the healing. This man was healed physically but also spiritually as you can see in verse 19,

then he said to him, “Rise and go; your faith has made you well.”

These ten men were all healed physically but only one of them was also healed spiritually. The one that returned back, his faith in Jesus believing that he was the son of God was that restored all of him. Sometimes we see healing happening in our life, it could be spiritually as well physically or emotionally but how many times do we stop to give thanks to God for the healing not only in the physical, emotionally or spiritually but in whole. I find fault within myself in this, as I have seen God work in different areas of my life and even though I am immensely grateful towards him; most of the time I forget to give daily thanks to him for all that he has done or is doing or will continue to do in my life.

This leper his faith plus his giving thanks to the savior restored him from who he was before he encountered Jesus. Are we being restored not just through faith but also thankfulness towards God?

P. S. Thanks for the prayers💕💕💕I been feeling a lot better since last time, unfortunately, I was not able to post my Called with a purpose blog post because being sick is no fun🙄😩😩 and I pretty much just wanted to sleep; however my next character in “Called with a Purpose” post will be our disciple Judas Iscariot but I want to dwell a little deeper in his story before posting it.  He is a character that needs to be scrutinized and I believe I might have to do two parts for him. Also, I have not forgotten about the recap of the girls’ conference I will be posting that tomorrow it will be scheduled tonight for tomorrow.

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Who are you in God?

784a5e12-eeac-43e4-9ac3-006f58472206Good morning on this beautiful day, today I will be writing about an issue that many youths, young adults and adults have gone through or are going through this moment in our lives. I will be speaking in the book of 1. Samuel 1:5-8. Hannah was the favored wife of Elkanah an Ephraimite; however, God had closed her womb and she was barren. Now this man had two wives; the second wife would belittle and provoke each time the family would go to give sacrifices to the Lord at Shiloh; Hannah would become sad and she would weep bitterly.

And she was in bitterness of soul, and prayed unto the Lord, and wept sore.11And she vowed a vow, and said, O Lord of hosts, if thou wilt indeed look on the affliction of thine handmaid, and remember me, and not forget thine handmaid, but wilt give unto thine handmaid a man-child, then I will give him unto the Lord all the days of his life, and there shall no razor come upon his head.

Hannah was a woman who had been mistreated not by her husband but by her husband’s second wife and had a view of her self as someone not worthy because she was barren and could not give her husband lineage from her. Hannah’s sorrow and low self-esteem became a tool in God’s hand as he remembered his servant and she was able to conceive.

Many times we doubt ourselves and we do not know who we are in God because of our low self-esteem. We have a distorted view of ourselves as objects of no great importance that cannot come up to something, but that is not who we are in God; in Genesis 1:27 it says;

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.

We were created by God and to resemble him not in physicality as God is Spirit but in spiritual qualities as well as moral and mental obedience to worldly laws. Low self-esteem comes from different causes for example;

  1. Physical Features: we as humans are so focused on our image that we distorted what beauty is and we scrutinize ourselves and find flaws in our person. Proverbs  31:30  says; ” Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.” We do not consist of only flesh but spirit also; someone who might be beautiful on the outside could be ugly on the inside; that leads us to our next point.
  2. Emotional, Physical and Substance abuse: Sometimes we make choices that bring a lot of pain into our lives. We might be in a relationship that becomes abusive mentally, emotionally and physically. This relationship can be a friendship, parental, dating or even work environment. This type of abuse will lead us to have a low self-esteem and will make us want to subdue or escape the pain in any which way and takes us to substance abuse. Many try to forget the pain by looking for oblivion in drugs or alcohol which instead of helping just makes everything worse as that could become an addiction or could bring a lot more severe consequences later on. This brings us to our next point which is,
  3. Tragic Past: Sometimes we have a low self-esteem because of the actions of our past that we have done or have been done to us. When I was younger I had a distorted view of myself because of my past; I thought I was unworthy of love or affection. I saw myself as ugly and lacking in everything; my friendships became my cornerstone which was unhealthy as I was depending on someone else for my happiness.
  4. Sin: From experience, I can testify that sin leaves deep scars that make you feel unworthy and give you low self-esteem. Many times when I remembered all that I had done during my teenage years I would get sad because of the choices that I made; I had to travel a harder road and also that brought my self- esteem low in my personal life as well in my ministry. I felt like a dirty, unclean and tattered rag that was unwanted.

Hannah’s low self-esteem and afflictions became God’s tool. There is a verse that Hannah says is chapter 2 of 1. Samuel and it’s;

Talk no more so exceeding proudly; let not arrogance come out of your mouth: for the Lord is a God of knowledge, and by him actions are weighed.

We might have a beautiful face and our self-esteem could be up to the roof but if our hearts and actions don’t reflect God what is the point of all. God looks into the inside and not the outside; he knows our every thought and desires. We might be able to fool men but not him.

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P.s. Thank you for hanging out with me today; hope to see you on my next blog post which will be a ” Called with a purpose” post. Remember that you are worthy of love and mercy; that God gave his begotten son for you and me in the cross. Don’t let opinion nor words of discouragement bring you down; instead, remember that you were chosen by him and through him, you have been saved. Shalom

Forgiveness.. When is the time?

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There is a song by one of my favorite bands called “Forgiven.” I bet all of you guys know who I’m talking about( Drum Roll Please…….) CROWDER(YAY) Just kidding  not many people like their music or know them. However their music always have a deeper meaning in the lyrics reason number one I like them. However that’s not what I will be talking about.

As I was driving today to my job; I had the K-Love station on and this song came through. As I was jamming to the song this thought came to my mind” When is the appropriate time to Forgive.” not just everyone else but also yourselves for your failings and setbacks in your walk with God and more.

Forgiven! Forgiven!
Child there is freedom from all of it
Say goodbye to every sin
You are forgiven!

When you have been or are being bullied in school or online, physically , mentally or sexually abused by people for years or just one time and you are left with the physical, mental and emotional but also  a lot of time spiritual scars; when is the appropriate time for you and I to forgive. If someone had told me that to start the healing process I needed to forgive my aggressor; I would have probably bit, kick or hit the person that told me that. But because I did not start the process of healing the right way anger and hatred simmered in my heart not towards my aggressor but my mother.

As many of you know I was raised in my home country of Honduras which is in Central America if one of you is wondering. My parents left me and my brother’s really young to provide for us as we had been hit by hurricane Mitch at the time they left. I was raised by my grandmother( my mom’s mom) until the age of 9. To make the story short after my traumatic experience I developed hatred and anger towards my mother because she had left me instead of taking me with her. My anger and hatred was directed toward the wrong person. But my healing process did not start until I met Jesus in 2008 and actually wanted to be freed from all that happened to me.

In the years of my healing process I never thought back on the guy who abused me but instead on what I was doing; in my failings to walk the correct path with God. In not been perfect enough, holy enough, or sanctified enough as I was going through a rebellious, and sexual immoral phase in my teen years. Because I never thought of him I never forgave him for his part in causing me such traumatic experience. I was afraid of being alone with my brothers and father that’s how deep the root of what had happened was ingrained me. 

I think if I had been taken to see a psychologist or counselors I would have been diagnosed with PTSD and have never been taken from medication. But God had a purpose for me and my path was not easy but I’m still here. It wasn’t until a few years ago that I finally was able to forgive my aggressor and was able to finally laid to rest this experience nowadays I only talk about it in reference to something I have to speak about or if God asks me to give the testimony during a preaching. Being able to move on and start the healing process is not until you have healed but before you start it.  You will never let those demons rest until you have forgiven the person who mistreated you or cause such a deep heartache in you.

4 Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”

I forgave my mother for not being there; not protecting me from the situation and my aggressor because if I hadn’t I  would have never let have gone of those chains tying me to my past or being freed at all. Jesus forgave his accusers and tormentors while he was being whipped, nailed and pierced. He gave them the absolution from their sins; only the father was able to take vengeance for what was done to his son as only him can do  justice to what was done to me or what has been done or is being done to you.

I’m no saint but I can tell you that even though forgiving first before the healing process will hurt; you will be happy at the end of it. We can be light in the darkness; be separate from everyone else. Be the light that directs to Jesus. We will never be free nor be able to heal and enjoy life without forgiving.

Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them,for they do not know what they are doing.

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