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Righteous or Not

It has been 4 hard months of sadness and lack of faith. These months have been months I have humbled myself and have cried out to God in the most raw way. Months were my faith lacked and my sadness overpowered me, where I could not see the way out and I did not want to see a way out. Months that I questioned my calling, my purpose but most of all questioned God’s Love.

In Psalms chapter 55 verse 22 the following states;

“Cast your burden on the LORD, And He shall sustain you; He shall never let the righteous to be moved.”

‭‭Months that instead of receiving a word of encouragement I would receive people’s opinions and words of humiliation. Moments where my existence looked dark and felt suffocating and my feelings were all over the place from sadness to joy and joy to anger and back to sadness. Moments were worship was a feeling of emptiness and left me more in that dark place that I was pushed into.

Months were I questioned God’s’ love towards me due to the trial that I was going through. Even though I knew that what I was going through was necessary for me to grow spiritually as well personally. God tests your limits and your faith in ways that are unexpected to you and in times where you are at your most comfortable place. God will put the right people beside you that will push you to move forward from that place where you feel you have been stuck at with a way out. Will give the feeling of fullness and feeling of being enough as well-being capable without hearsay of others. While others will belittle who you are and humiliate you to feel better about themselves God does not let his son/ daughter to be moved from where he has placed them at.

There is a saying there is always a David behind a Saul. And, yes but each David and each Saul will be tested and refined to be the vessel that God will use for a purpose. Don’t belittle who you are in God’s hands nor you belittle someone else because you think you can do it better than them. Always bless the one before you and always bless the one behind you because at the end of the day only God provides and takes away.

P.S. I missed writing and I’m so glad to be back, will try to get up to date as soon as possible. Thank you for supporting me on this ride. God bless♥️ Shalom🕊

Devotional➕🕊

I say I cannot go further,

But your Holy Spirit tells me don’t give up my child..

When the i look upon the pit of darkness that tries to claim me,

My soul cries in hunger for you Lord…

Where can I hide from you Lord?

There’s no places I can can hide from your presence Lord.

If I were to climb the highest mountain; your presence is there,

If were to go down to the bottomless sea your presence will be there Lord.

My fears and iniquities are laid before your presence, my robes are being washed clean by your tears.

Your blood has washed me clean and your love has healed the open wounds that have formed in my soul, your love has been the healing that this parched soul was in need off.

In the moment of my despair, your hand was upon me delivering from the trap that the enemy had laid before me,

You have govern my life with unending love, mercy and grace. Incline your ear Lord, to the petitions of my heart, let my heart be not troubled anymore.

Let your presence be the balm in this desolate place in need of your guidance.Let your bride reset in the presence of her bridegroom, govern my life oh Lord.

Let your word be the seal in which my life is govern with and your presence be the light the guides my life.

Testimony➕🗣

God Bless everyone on this beautiful day. Sorry I been MIA for this couple of weeks but it’s with immense joy and deep gratitude that I’m writing this blog post. I’m the type of person that firmly believes in spreading the good news to everyone and let me tell you that I really have great news to share with all of you today. I know many of you have been with me and this blog since the beginning and I want to thank those that have united but I would not be here nor would I be able to share this good news without God.

We Are Home Owners!!!!

As many of you know I have shared with all of you our process of buying our new house in some posts since the beginning. It was a long process where we did not see the end of the tunnel nor did we see the blessing that would be waiting for us. I cannot tell you how many roadblocks presented themselves during this process, and it was a process where our faith was tested. There were tears of frustration, tears of excitement and tears of joy. Since the moment we started searching for a home to buy, there were roadblocks; whichever house we liked that house would be sold the next day or people will not accept the proposals that were sent. Let’s not even talk about the process for the loan; actually, let’s do it because you will see how God moved in this.

My father and mother applied for a loan together and that process was so long and difficult. The bank required that they have references from their job and the landlord from whom they rented. Let me tell you that there were issues with the job and worse the landlord from whom they had rented for 9 years; he did not want to give the reference. This delayed the process more; our closing date was pushed back three times. We were completely done with the whole process the last time they pushed back the closing date; my father had already decided to cancel the whole thing. But my mother had a dream in the beginning of December; where she saw that they received their keys until the month of January. At this time we were still with the first closing date for the 14th of December but after that was pushed back and the second was pushed back and then the third we understood that it was not in our timing but Gods’.

On January 17th they were finally able to close on their house and in that moment that they were signing their paperwork; I could see in my mother’s expression that it was worth the 9 years of prayer over this home. In my father’s expression is was worth the hard work and the saving of money. Truthfully God’s hand was at move during this whole process even in our day of moving; my mother says that God sent angels that day to help us move. It took us two drives to move everything to the new house and in the first, the ones uploading and downloading the stuff was only my father, mother, and I. But God came through by sending some family members and even people from our church to help by the second drive.

Isaiah 41: 18

I will open rivers on the barren heights, and fountains in the middle of the valleys. I will turn the desert into a pool of water, and the dry land into flowing springs.

As I was preaching on Saturday in our youth service, your affliction becomes your blessing. The desert becomes your blessing; it’s where you grow spiritually, mentally and emotionally. You learn to rely on God for everything. This process taught us that relying on God is always right; who is better than him to help you in moments of doubt, tribulation, and fear. As my father was giving the testimony about two services back he said that it’s painful to be mistreated by others maybe for no reason or because of fear, hatred or pain; but that God was seeing everything and he offered the comfort and gave the strength in those moments and he will give you the blessings that you are requesting him in his timing.

P.s. Sorry for being absent for so long, but moving and all that comes with that takes pretty much over your life🙄 I hope that this post will help you keep moving forward in whatever process that you may be in at this moment. God never forgets nor forsakes.

2019 A Year Of Victory

Happy 2019 to all of you! 2018 has been a ride of ups and downs; also a year of growth and change within the blog, my spiritual life as well ministry. I can’t thank 2018 enough because it helped me see the flaws within me as well helped me overcome many obstacles that rose up. I finished 2018 declaring victory over all petitions; over conquering the tribulation, murmuring and fear that would not let go. 2019 you will be the year full of victories over the chains that will be broken, over the souls, my ministry, over our house, my family and my job. Last year taught me that it’s not “I” but God who has everything in control.

This year God is testing me in this area; just recently someone told me this ” You are not my leader, and you are not a very good one at all” That sentence came out of nowhere; that little sentence made me doubt the months and years of God working in my life; of the tribulations, over the progress that God has done in my life, made me ask myself what I was lacking but most importantly made me doubt God and his purpose. I kept asking myself these questions, why am I not enough? what’s wrong with me? why am I not seeing any progress? and the door to self-doubt was opened.

To my mind came words of comfort asking me why was I listening to someone that has not even started their own process, have not even begun their journey into the desert. God was comforting me and rebuking me because it’s not what they say, it’s not what they want. God raises leaders that meet the needs of the people but don’t conform to their wants. If Joshua and every other single leader that God lifted had done what the people wanted where would God had glorified himself.

I remember just telling that person; ” that’s fine” and leaving but later that day just crying and asking God so many questions, and to my mind came the story of Joshua and what he went through with the people of Israel; they did not see a leader in him but through him, God gave them the victory of their land. Through him, God rose an army of warriors, through him God did wonders and miracles in the sky.

The LORD told Joshua, “Today I will begin to make you a great leader in the eyes of all the Israelites. They will know that I am with you, just as I was with Moses.

You are what God chose and is making you be, don’t let what anyone says affect you. One thing I do ask and that is that you respect the leadership of the person that is over you. Not because it’s mandated but because, how can you ask God to use you if you do not respect your leader? Why would God lift or even use someone prideful when even the bible says that the prideful he sees from afar and the humble from near. If you are able to respect the leader before you then you are able to respect the one over all of us which is God.

P.C. I hope that this year is a year of blessings but most importantly a year where you see God’s hand move over the small and big victories that will come your way.

Revelation➕⚔️

Good Afternoon

I really do not know if I should write about this but the Holy Spirit is leading me so I will be obedient; and tell you about the experience I had this morning. I do not know if this word is for one of you or this word is for myself or my church in general, but I hope that this word gives you the confirmation that you need if it’s for you.

God speaks in so many ways and for me this morning he spoke to me through dream that felt more like a vision and he gave me the name of the book, chapter and verse for a message. I’m waiting for confirmation of course but something inside of me it’s telling me to write about it and share it with you guys. I’m not that person who is spiritually all the time and God rarely uses me in this area but when it’s from God; whatever he shows me comes true.

“And I heard a voice from heaven saying, “Write this: Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on.” “Blessed indeed,” says the Spirit, “that they may rest from their labors, for their deeds follow them!””
‭‭Revelation‬ ‭14:13‬ ‭

There are many who don’t believe that God can use you this way. I remember I wrote a post about limiting the Holy Spirit- No limit to the Holy Spirit– you can find it in the archives; however God can you use in ways you have never imagined if you allow yourself to be used but remember that there is always a price to pay to be used that way. The men and women of God paid the price to be used in such a way but this generation in that area is lacking.

This morning God spoke to me in the book of Revelations chapter 14; but the specific verse that he gave me was verse 13. I’m my dream I’m at church and the pastor is preaching but I’m hearing this sentence being said repeatedly in my ear Revelations 14:13. I woke up around 7 am for work but I was let known our offices were closed due to the snow storm that came through yesterday in NC. So I went back to sleep and God gave me this dream, and I kept hearing just that word so I grabbed my bible and started to read chapter 14 of revelations and it talks about the 144,000, message of the three angels and the harvest of the earth.

The first two messages pretty much speaks about the 144,000 that were not contaminated through the false allegations that the beast is Christ and the judgement that will come upon the earth. We are in the time where false doctrines are raising up and poeple are being lead astray from the true path of God. What are we doing in not letting that happen. Are we doing what has been commanded of us? Or are we letting opportunities as well time pass by without doing what has been demanded that we do. Maybe you are thinking that you have no word to say or that your insignificant to other big preachers, leaders, worshippers or just general church members, if God has called you is with a purpose. You are not meant to be what they are and I have learned that the hard way. Each one of us have a different ministry but that does not make us little. Stop seeing yourself as others see you but start seeing yourself as God sees you, something precious and something powerful in his eyes.

P.s. I hope that this message if it’s for you, has spoken to you. Let’s continue to pray for the church worldwide it’s time to wake up and do what has been commanded of us. Many will be lead astray but it’s our job to prevent that from happening. Reach out to your community by praying, preaching and spreading the word that God has put in your heart. Thank you for supporting this blog, many of you have commented on my posts that God has spoken to you through them and you really don’t know how much that means to me💕 Shalom🕊

As you can see I love the snow, being sick didn’t stop me from going out and playing as also taking pictures😂🙈

We got about 15 inches of snow and it’s still snowing 🌨

Change the way you Praise and Persevere 🙌🏻

Hi! I hope that everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, today I want to bring a recap of what was preached on Sundays service which was pretty bomb. This is something that I can give testimony that it works, but only if you are willing or open.

Then Moses said, “I will now turn aside and see this great sight, why the bush does not burn.”
⁴So when the Lord saw that he turned aside to look, God called to him from the midst of the bush and said, “Moses, Moses!”
Exodus 3:3-4Have you been to a place where the atmosphere is so heavy; that you feel like you’re suffocating?. At first, you start getting a really bad headache as if someone were to be smashing a hammer to your skull. It’s a terrible and painful feeling that while I’m praying sometimes its impossible for me to go deeper into the prayer because of that feeling. The atmosphere is so heavy nowadays that sometimes it feels as we are fighting against a wall of darkness.

It’s in that moment that you got to persevere in your prayer, worship or trial. It’s in that moment when the breakthrough might happen or you have gone a step higher then before. I been dealing with this type of issue in my prayer and so so in my worship ; sometimes it has become difficult for me to pray. There are moment when I feel like I can’t deal anymore and I probably only just say “Heavenly Father” and three to four sentences and stop. But there are moments that instead of backing away I persevere in that prayer and there’s a breakthrough moment in it; where I can just feel God’s presence.

A few months ago I was called by God to the pastoral ministry and in the youth revival service about three Sunday’s ago; it was confirmed. I am not going to lie and say that I’m not fearful of the calling that has been given to me of course I am, being a pastor is such a huge step but most of all a huge responsibility that God gives you. You are been called and anointed to bring people into God’s path but also be an example of Christ and his love for us.

“No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” 1. Corinthians 10:13

This verse reminds me that God will help in whatever situation that might rise up; there’s so much incredulity outside and even within the Christian faith. When I was called to be the youth leader so many obstacles rose up, but I am so grateful for them because I was able to grow and mature not only personally but also spiritually. Becoming a pastor would bring those obstacles or trials 2x harder then before but I know God has my back and he will not let me go.

Your worship is so fundamental that it disrupts and even confuses the plans or attacks of the enemy. Worship in the midst of trials and in the middle of blessings; worship when you don’t feel like it and when you feel like doing it. Combine your worship and prayer together and you have a nuclear bomb that will overpower the enemy and it’s attacks. Your worship as your prayer makes God move and show you the unexpected.

Shout of Praise🔥

Good Morning beloveds,

It has been a couple of days since the last post, I have not disappeared instead I been a little busy with different stuff. In a couple of posts back I wrote that my parents were in search of a house and with great happiness I’m able to give you this great news.

We Found the House!!!

Yes, just as you read we found the house after being actively searching for more than 5 months even though sometimes it feels like even more. And just as we asked God about the house that’s how we got it. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions as we would look and fall in love with a house to later find out that it was under contract, we felt as we were being blocked from every angle; but God’s timing is perfect and he never disappoints, he had the perfect home and in the neighboorhood that we wanted.

The closing date it’s to be on the 22nd of December and I cannot be any more excited, God has been super good to us. My advice to you at this moment if you are asking God for something it might be a job, a house, a car or your own family; do not give up. Continue declaring God’s word upon your life and something that I have always said; declare open doors for you and for your family. Say it out loud or cry it out! remember that is was the faith of the woman with the issue of blood that healed her.

Jesus turned, and seeing her he said, “Take heart, daughter; your faith has made you well.” And instantly the woman was made well.

Matthew 9:22

It’s our faith that is tested in circumstances like this, never give up and always remember that your God is the same God of Abraham, Isaac, and Israel. If I could write all that God has done in this few days I will never be able to stop writing, he has done so much just not in my personal life but my ministry too. The youth ministry had a youth revival service on Sunday and let me just say that God moved in such a tremendous way that even though I expected him to move I never thought it would be in that way.

From the beginning to the end he ministered the youth and the people of house of prayer, confirmed the word through the worship and confirmed ministries, delivered youth, and overall spoke to the youth clearly. It was a service where all four hours; I cried my heart out before the Lord, his presence was just there it was almost as if he was face to face with us at that moment. He taught me on that day that I need to stop fear from controlling my worship to him. He took me higher then I could ever go before and gave me the words to give to the people; it was an amazing experience.

P.S. Happy Thanksgiving to all!! Take the time to appreciate what you have and give thanks to God, fo all that he has done for you and your loved ones. Much love ❣️💕

Who are you? Who am I?

As I was reading the book of Genesis the night before that, I came across the chapter where Jacob is fleeing from his father in law Laban. However, it wasn’t until the next morning when I was on my twitter about to post something that a tweet from Beth Moore caught my attention.

Like I said I had read the night before that chapter from Genesis, however, in my search of the covenants that God made with various characters throughout the Bible, I did not pay attention to the word and God was speaking to me through it. A lot of times we are mistreated, judged, belittle, put to the side in our own churches or family; maybe because your opinions are not the same as everyone else. People of higher standing, closest to you or even pastors nowadays; want sheep, friends or family members that don’t ask questions but that instead, they will follow blindly or jump when they say jump. Knowledge and wisdom are powerful but not the type of power where you control people but where no one will be able to fool you and lead you in a different direction then what God intended.

At this moment in life, as I was speaking to my mother and I was telling her, that I’m feeling stuck. I have not seen growth within me in a couple of months and that is not what I want for my relationship with God. I want to be covered from head to toe with his presence, it’s my deepest desire to be used by him. I have let circumstances and people affect my way of having a deeper relationship with God. I’m craving something more from God. I want my relationship with God to become deeper than before.

Genesis 31:12

And he said, ‘Lift up your eyes and see, all the goats that mate with the flock are striped, spotted, and mottled, for I have seen all that Laban is doing to you.

Jacob was a thief and a liar, and, God still remembered him. He was being treated unfairly by his father in law and God was seeing the injustice in what Laban was doing, he multiplied the injustice into a blessing as Jacob left with more than half of Laban riches. You and I might have been a robbers, murderers, adulterers, prostitutes, hypocrites, terrorists, sinners of much more but when we came to the path of God and we repented with a sincere repentance all injustice that might be thrown or has been thrown at us because of our past; or different point of views God will turn it into blessing in a blink of an eye. We are not our past but instead, God sees who we can be in him.

Exhort 🤔or Love💕?

Hi,on today’s blog, I will be speaking about something that I have been struggling with within me and in my ministry. This topic has been in my mind to blog about for a long time but I just never felt that it was time yet and yesterday while I was watching a Christian blogger; God was speaking to my life.

John 13:35

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.³⁵By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another

In the book of John, Jesus left us this commandment to love one another as he has loved us. But if we ask ourselves this question, do we really love one another? I’m asking myself and wondering if I really love my brethren, family, and friends or it’s just a fleeting feeling of attachment. To love like Jesus loves we need to show compassion, mercy, kindness, trust but most of all have a deep love for God. However, Christians or believers(myself included) we have a bad habit of thinking that exhorting or saying what we think is right that’s how you show love. Unfortunately, we have a rep as critics and hypocrites; and that’s not because of God but because in our human thinking we impose our views and rules in each other.

Jesus never imposed rules upon us but he said, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” He gave us the option to follow him and he gave us salvation by his sacrifice; through this, he has saved millions upon millions of lives. Now let’s ask ourselves this question, how many lives have we brought to Jesus.? One thing is to exhort in love and another is to impose your views. To exhort in love, you have to show mercy, kindness but most of all love to the person you will be exhorting. The book of Matthews deals with the exhortation topic by saying this,

15. If your brother or sister sins,go and point out their fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over.¹⁶But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that ‘every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.’ ¹⁷If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector

I’m learning to keep quiet and pray before going to someone and exhort or give advice to. Why? well not everyone will be comfortable with the idea of someone else coming up to you and telling you what you are doing wrong. I know I’m the first one that will have a dumbstruck face and be thinking ” did she/he really said that to me” why? because as humans we have faults and sometimes one of those faults is pride. To speak with love I got to be filled with God’s love myself. If I’m going to exhort someone I got to show fruits myself first. The word says that by their fruits you should know them.

1 Thessalonians 5:14

We urge you, brethren, admonish the unruly, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with everyone.

One thing is to be tactful in the way you exhort and another is covering someone’s sin, there is a difference. I have made changes in my life this year that have brought a different view from last year. However, I was not showing the fruits of God’s love on my friends or family member’s or ministry-wise. I thought I knew better, however, God confronted me because I was seeing a decrease in many areas instead of an increase in his presence. Maybe; many of the things that were wrong could have been changed if I had just opened up my eyes to what God wanted to show me. God is a God of love, and every word that comes of my mouth or yours represents him. Maybe it’s the time to let God guide instead of thinking we know best. I don’t know about you but I will try my best. Shalom🌸🕊💕

What is in your heart? Guest blogger- Israel Ramos

God bless on this beautiful day; today’s blog post I will have a guest in my blog. He is the vice leader of the youth ministry in my church. I asked that he transformed his preaching of Friday night to a blog post today as through his preaching all of us received on Friday night I also believe that whoever reads this blog will receive from the word .

In Mark 28:34, the word says;

“And to love him with all the heart and with all the understanding and with all the strength, and to love one’s neighbor as oneself, is much more than all whole burnt offerings and sacrifices.””
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To understand the message of tonight or today as God directed me to this bible verse to preach on youth Friday I will dwell in four things that we need to work in the ministry. In my work I met a pastor who spoke to me and the words of wisdom that he gave left an impact; he said that many of us have a title; however that most of all believers only say that they are christian and actually do not know their real title and purpose in God. That all of us are called with a purpose but we need to submerged ourselves deeper into the waters to see the purpose that God has for us because what you might think it’s for you it could actually not be. The main purpose of this preaching or post is not to only use words but also actions to describe being christ like but also to scrutinize your heart and find the purpose that you have been called to do.

One of the main points is you got to have HEART; you got to love God with all your heart and have a passion. When you love someone you want to let everyone know; you want to shout it out and that’s the same way it should be for God. However what we lack with God, we without restraint give it for the world or for things that have no meaning. It’s really beautiful the first stage of falling in love as you can’t stop thinking about the person that you are interested in or can’t stop talking about that person to family members, friends or even telling that person. How many times do you proclaim your love for Jesus to the unbelievers or the world? Do you proclaim it when you feel its necessary? When you remind yourself? Or all the time? As you are grateful for what he has done in your life. As humans we are fickle minded and also selfish it’s a flaw and work of the flesh but when we come to God we are created as a new creature in him.

Second point is our Desire in Proverbs 8:11 says;

“for wisdom is better than jewels, and all that you may desire cannot compare with her.”

in this verse it talks about wisdom but also our desire. Just by having wisdom is better than having materialistic stuff that will not go with you at the end. The desires of our flesh or wants for things that are passing through will not help us in times of tribulation. One thing that King Solomon asked of God when he became king was not the riches of the world but to be wise in guiding the people of Israel and he was tested in the situation with the two women and the child in 1 of Kings 3:16-28. Wisdom will give you the words and strength to keep moving forward as also help you in times of need.

The third point is FAITH. In Matthew 17:20; Jesus chastise the disciples after encountering a man who had brought his son to Jesus to be delivered as the disciples were not able to because of their lack of faith.

“He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.””
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Faith is an important aspect in our walk with Jesus; it’s through faith and grace that we are able to call God our father. Another example is the disciple Thomas; that after Jesus having presented/showed himself before the other disciples and him not being present he said he would not believe he had resurrected if he was not able to touch his wounds and his side.

“Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believe”

Always remember that God has called you to the ministry; because you are able to deliver what he wants from you. Our faith could be as a mustard seed or a grain of sand so small, but God’s faith in you is bigger and more powerful than anything. Many times of our lives we have God showing us his love and mercy in each daily thing but we still doubt him and his work.

Last point is Never Stop; doing what God has called you to do. It’s so important that you believe this and engraved it deep into your heart; their will be moments of insecurity, fear, doubt but God is always there in the midst of all. Keep moving forward and continue to grow where he has planted you and you will see God’s hand at work.

All my life I spoke or said that God was my Lord and savior; I let everyone know who he was but spiritually I never grew. I was not doing anything I was only seeing and hearing the words come out of my mouth. The first time I truly felt his presence was one time in worship. When I felt this warmth inside my body and I started to shout and praise; I realized that is not only through words but also action I will show of God. I started to do it more and more at church, home, work and that’s when I started to see the growth in my spiritual life. God started to use me in songs, preachings, motivational speaking to the youth. I’m not letting fear stop me; I’m asking myself daily what’s in my heart? Am I hearing God? Seeing him work? Those are my questions to myself but I ask that you go deep within your heart and scrutinize and ask ; What’s In my Heart?

P.S. Thanks to my brother Israel Ramos for this beautiful message that he brought to the youth and congregation on Friday; I believe that God will continue to use him more and more within the ministry of the youth as his own. I ask that you keep my family and I as well the North Carolina residents in your prayers as we are in the trajectory of hurricane Florence. I’m at peace in knowing that God is covering us with his precious blood; however there are people who unfortunately can’t say the same. Keep us in prayer I’m hoping that the hurricane will not affect badly my city as I don’t want to be without power😞😞😭😭but we shall see by tomorrow. God bless and I shall see you in next blog post, Shalom🕊🗣