I’m a Warrior👊🏻👊🏻🗣🗣⚔️🗡

Happy Memorial Day and Blessings to all you. I know it has been about a month since I have posted on my blog but things have been difficult and wonderful. I decided to  be off my blog for a while; as I needed to handle it and become a stronger me.

“If a ruler’s anger rises against you, do not leave your post; calmness can lay great offenses to rest.” Ecclesiastes’s 10: 4

The enemy rose up against me in every way this couple of months and I do not even understand how I’m still standing here. My ministry and spiritual life was extremely attacked; only because of God am I still standing and continue to write in this blog. But after this month of trials; a bigger blessing that I could ever imagined came upon my life and our family. Now that the storm has passed I can see God’s hand move and see his hands guide every action and steps that I took. This month gave me a valuable lesson; where God has put you anyone  that dares will not move you from it.

Isaiah 57:10

” You were wearied with the length of your way, but you did not say, “it is hopeless”; you found new life for your strength, and so you were not faint.”

A few blogs past I shared that we were still praying for my dad to rise up in the ministry and he was still move spiritually dead but during this whole month I have seen God work on my father and his spiritual life. I cannot express the immense joy that we have at this given moment as the head of the household is lifting up and we are seeing his growth and enthusiasm. God is so good; never in my thoughts I imagined the immense joy that I get every time I see my father having that desire to serve God willingly. This battle was given years of fasting and prayers and we are seeing God’s prophetic words come to fruition.

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Last year God through my pastor gave me a prophetic word. I had been asking in prayer for a new car as the car I had was an oldie that my parents needed for their job. God in his mercy heard my petition and declared a word letting me know that my car was ready; but it would be given in his time. I continued praying and searching for cars; I had specifically ask him for a car that was semi new as I did not want a new car that would have me deep in debt and low in mileage and price. What I could not see and imagined was that God had the day prepared and the car that was going to be it. The car that God had for me was a really low mileage car with less than  17k miles and for a price of $12k and it’s a car from 2017. It is said that before the blessing you are passed through fire. Maybe I was being tested during this whole month and my two blessings were given because I did not fail; or just maybe it was God’s perfect timing.

My advice to you in this moment if you are being passed through fire is do not leave your post. If God has put you somewhere it’s because he will back you up in every single thing that you do. God is backing up my ministry and this blog and I believe that sooner rather than later  I will be traveling around this world preaching and giving testimony of his glorious mercy and love and support he has had with me and from where he brought me out of.

P.s. I have missed you guys so much😞😞💕💕Come show some love😊🤗

Face to Face with Mortality➕➕➕➕

God bless you all!!!!

This Saturday was a glorious day as we celebrated the baptisms of 5 members of our church that decided to give their life completely to God. It was a day of celebration as this members decided to be born as new creatures in Christ. We went to Jordan Lake in North Carolina and the day was beautiful. God moved in profound ways in the lives of these five members; three which were adults, one was a teenager and one a child of 11.

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Many people have an encounter with God. One of the females that got baptized; last Sunday  God baptized her with the Holy Spirit as this was what she had been asking him for quite along while in prayer and fasting. Many people will criticize and have something to say about this but it’s a blessing to be able to be granted that opportunity that does not mean it makes the person in any way more special that just means that you have another type of intimacy with the Lord.

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However the enemy was not happy that these lives were taken from his grasp as he chose a moment that God allowed for a teen to almost drown when he was swimming in the lake, It was a moment that even the people who were in the lake where in shock because no one knew how it happened. One moment he was swimming fine and another he was under water for quite a while before everyone came out of the stupor and were able to move. It was by God’s mercy that he is alive as when the two men that rescued him got to him he had been under for about two minutes this was after he had gone down and came back up 3 times yelling for help.

It brought all the congregation and everyone around us a moment of face to face with mortality and actually God. Because that experience made us analyze our spiritual life and see how our daily living with God is. I wish i could explain and let you guys see the reaction that this has brought to me. It’s time to get ourselves together with God; because at the end of all we are just dust that will go back to the earth but our soul at the end will either be in peace and slumber or in eternal suffering. I’m not a religious freak but it’s time to get ourselves right with God and actually start preaching the word and living the word how it’s written not how we want to interpret for our own needs and wants.

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P.S. Overall God is Good and his mercy and grace is never ending. We saw God’s hand move today in a big way in the lives in not just the five that were getting baptized but also in the lives of all present.

Forgiveness.. When is the time?

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There is a song by one of my favorite bands called “Forgiven.” I bet all of you guys know who I’m talking about( Drum Roll Please…….) CROWDER(YAY) Just kidding  not many people like their music or know them. However their music always have a deeper meaning in the lyrics reason number one I like them. However that’s not what I will be talking about.

As I was driving today to my job; I had the K-Love station on and this song came through. As I was jamming to the song this thought came to my mind” When is the appropriate time to Forgive.” not just everyone else but also yourselves for your failings and setbacks in your walk with God and more.

Forgiven! Forgiven!
Child there is freedom from all of it
Say goodbye to every sin
You are forgiven!

When you have been or are being bullied in school or online, physically , mentally or sexually abused by people for years or just one time and you are left with the physical, mental and emotional but also  a lot of time spiritual scars; when is the appropriate time for you and I to forgive. If someone had told me that to start the healing process I needed to forgive my aggressor; I would have probably bit, kick or hit the person that told me that. But because I did not start the process of healing the right way anger and hatred simmered in my heart not towards my aggressor but my mother.

As many of you know I was raised in my home country of Honduras which is in Central America if one of you is wondering. My parents left me and my brother’s really young to provide for us as we had been hit by hurricane Mitch at the time they left. I was raised by my grandmother( my mom’s mom) until the age of 9. To make the story short after my traumatic experience I developed hatred and anger towards my mother because she had left me instead of taking me with her. My anger and hatred was directed toward the wrong person. But my healing process did not start until I met Jesus in 2008 and actually wanted to be freed from all that happened to me.

In the years of my healing process I never thought back on the guy who abused me but instead on what I was doing; in my failings to walk the correct path with God. In not been perfect enough, holy enough, or sanctified enough as I was going through a rebellious, and sexual immoral phase in my teen years. Because I never thought of him I never forgave him for his part in causing me such traumatic experience. I was afraid of being alone with my brothers and father that’s how deep the root of what had happened was ingrained me. 

I think if I had been taken to see a psychologist or counselors I would have been diagnosed with PTSD and have never been taken from medication. But God had a purpose for me and my path was not easy but I’m still here. It wasn’t until a few years ago that I finally was able to forgive my aggressor and was able to finally laid to rest this experience nowadays I only talk about it in reference to something I have to speak about or if God asks me to give the testimony during a preaching. Being able to move on and start the healing process is not until you have healed but before you start it.  You will never let those demons rest until you have forgiven the person who mistreated you or cause such a deep heartache in you.

4 Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”

I forgave my mother for not being there; not protecting me from the situation and my aggressor because if I hadn’t I  would have never let have gone of those chains tying me to my past or being freed at all. Jesus forgave his accusers and tormentors while he was being whipped, nailed and pierced. He gave them the absolution from their sins; only the father was able to take vengeance for what was done to his son as only him can do  justice to what was done to me or what has been done or is being done to you.

I’m no saint but I can tell you that even though forgiving first before the healing process will hurt; you will be happy at the end of it. We can be light in the darkness; be separate from everyone else. Be the light that directs to Jesus. We will never be free nor be able to heal and enjoy life without forgiving.

Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them,for they do not know what they are doing.

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Just as I am.

Just as I am Lord,

With nothing to offer,

but my song.

I  have nothing more to give,

because everything is, yours Lord.

Just as I am Lord,

with nothing to give,

but my heart, I give everything to you.

take me Lord, just as I am.

Accept me as a offering of love,

like a sacrifice pleasing  for your honor,

pleasing fragrance I want to be Lord.

– Jesus Adrian Romero/Artist

This song is in spanish I translated the lyrics because I like many of you forget that God wants us just as how we are without pretense and hiding behind a mask. He loves us flawed because he has seen mine and your deepest darkest place and he still loves you and I. How can we reject that beautiful love, that sees the ugly and still loves the same.

P.S. Yesterday was National Siblings Day and I want to give a shoutout to my brothers and sisters in Christ; thank you for your support and love I really appreciate it💕🌸🌸I’m working on writing the second part of the Dating in Modern Days post💑Stay tuned, thanks for everyone that have read or like that post✅. I’m working on various things right now as I want to take this blog to a different level, maybe make a series of post or start the reviewing of books or I might start doing guest blog post👍👍. Let me know who will like to be a guest blogger on this blog🤷‍♀️. I do not know yet; I’m letting God dictate what he wants to do that’s the best way to go.Shalom🌸💕💕

Broken Prayers🌺🌸

What do you do when you feel like there is no answer?

When you see the ugliness of your mistakes and iniquities facing you everyday?

When you can’t speak up because you are afraid of the judgement that will come down on you?

You want my tears, every messy word
Every scar and every fear
You want all I have
With no holding back
When I’m hurt, at my worst
You meet me there
‘Cause you see the beauty
In my broken prayers
In my broken prayers

– Broken Prayers (Riley Clemmons)

Life is beauty when everything is squeaky clean, in order and polished that when people see us the only see that side but never what’s underneath. A lot of days I feel like the broken and lost child that I was several years ago…and my prayers feel like they fall in deaf ears. I have constant moment of irrational fear where I feel like my burdens and my insecurities need to be bottled up. Because I feel the need to present a facade of togetherness where I just want to run to a cliff and scream and scream until all that I feel can be exposed into existence. I’m the seasoned warrior that wants to give up and hide in a cave and never come out.

There is no shadow you won’t light up

Mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me

there is no wall, you won’t kick down,

lie you won’t tear down, coming after me.

-Reckless love(Passion)

What do you do when you don’t feel the breeze or hear the voice of your beloved. And if in the deepest part of your soul you wish for that voice to say I’m here but you can’t hear nor can see. Beauty that you have never seen but you have believed that lived and died in the cross.  My shackles and chains have been freed and I’m proof that grace and love can win.If my faith were like the mustard seed that would grow and grow. Maybe what I’m missing is learning to love myself through my insecurities, my ups and down that same way you love me.

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P. S. I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter and that from this Easter you are resurrected as a new you just as Jesus was resurrected. Shalom💕💕I will be posting my dating post this week stay tuned and show some love down below👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻 I will be waiting for the comments on what everyone did this Easter; we celebrate Easter in a quiet way 💕💕God Bless & Love you all💕💕 thank you for supporting this ministry🌸

Where is your Resurrection?

1.Kings 17:14

For this is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says: ‘The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the Lord sends rain on the land.’”

 

As I was reading the two books of Kings for my preaching for youth service on friday. I came upon  the meetings of the prophets Elijah and Elisha with two non Israelites women that helped them in times when they needed it without asking for anything in return. What God brought to my attention was that these two women gave instead of asked and because of their actions God blessed them. And  he blessed them abundantly  one with nourishment for her and her child her oil and flour never did run dry or was used up during  the famine in the land while the other one was given the blessing of being a mother after so many years. God tried these two men and women, he tried their faith. One of the various things I found in common in the two stories was that they knew that Elijah and Elisha were men of God.

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And he said, “At this season, about this time next year, you shall embrace a son.” And she said, “No, my lord, O man of God; do not lie to your servant.”

Elijah and Elisha were prophets that God used tremendously in the old testament but they weren’t exempt from God testing their faith also. In verse 20 of 1. Kings 17, Elijah asks a question to God why had God brought tragedy to this woman’s home after helping him and it says that he laid on the child three times and cried out (” Lord my
God, let this boy’s life return to him.” 1. Kings 17:21)
 and God answered the cry and gave life back to the child. Same thing happened in the book of 2. Kings 4, Elisha not knowing what was happening in the house of the Shunammite meets her and he finds out what has happened to her child; he then sends his servant to lay his staff on the child and when the staff does not work he goes and lay on the child and God heard his cry.

The significance of them laying on the children and putting the hands to hands, mouth to mouth and eyes to eyes was them crying out to God to healed the children. They were calling out God to come and do the miracles of giving life as he is the only one that can do it. But God tested their faith because it was not the staff nor just being used by God but that if it’s on the will of God he can resurrect anyone from death. As we have for example Lazarus and even Jesus Christ.

The two mothers of the child’s they were blessed and they saw the blessing come to life but their hearts were not on the Lord. Their eyesight was not on the Lord; they were living from the blessing but did they actually believe in God.? From the response one gave I do not think so; after the miracle she told the prophet (” Now I know you are a man of God and that the word of the Lord from your mouth is the truth.” 1. Kings 17:24.)

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Was there a resurrection in their life that was more than physical? Yes there was they were left knowing that there is a God that can take and give life back and that overpasses the firmament of this earth. They saw the miracles that happened through two men of God by the Lord. And they believed instead of seeing the miracles but not believing in God. God tested both this two women and two of his prophets for their faith to become stronger during the adversities of life. Now they were change but what about you; so my question to you is, Where is your Resurrection?

P.S. It’s Semana Santa!! which means Holy week; I don’t know if yet if I will be posting something related to it, as many bloggers do that during this week. My blog post about dating is in a rough draft at this moment so I think by early next week or the end of this week I will be posting it. Let this week and every single day afterward bring you joy and reconciliation with the Lord. Let God bring a change into your  life; open yourself to the things that you cannot see but that are waiting for you.

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Inner Healing🗣🗣💜💜💗

Matthews 11:30

“for my yoke is easy and my burden is light”

Happy Monday everyone!!!!!

I’m immensely sorry for not posting last week that much; I had posted in the last blog post that I would post only three days last week; however circumstances happened. On Saturday I decided to head to the beach to relax from everything, work, church, and home. I was able to enjoy the fresh air and the water as also the scenery of the sea and the ride was fun. IMG_1324

In that moment I was plain Ana; just one with God and nature. Seeing God’s hand in the beauty that is in our world. What can I say it was a much-needed rest.. from thinking of the stuff at home, at church, and at work. I’m the type of person that never rests; I’m not much of an outgoing person I have always been someone who is comfortable staying at home and reading and blogging or just singing around; but this last week I had felt all the stress of a couple of weeks from work, home and church. There is a moment when you just have to be and rest and heal at your own time.IMG_1326

A bible verse that always calls my attention is in Ecclesiastes 3:4; because as someone once said time is the essence of our being( I don’t remember who said it though) anyways this verse always calls me to attention because I’m so involved most of the time in other people’s   lives and situation trying to help them and give support that I forget myself in the process and a lot of times I end up burnt out from everything; emotionally, mentally and physically.

“A time to weep and a time to laugh,

A time to moun and a time to dance.”

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Having a ministry it’s really hard and I really do congratulate Jesus first of all that his ministry lasted for 3 straight running years; the disciples for spreading his word, our pastors, evangelists, missionary’s and our brethren for walking daily with God and still having the strength and faith to continue walking with him. This will be my second year as a youth leader and I feel burnt out.. it so hard dealing with so many different personalities and characters; it’s almost frustrating at times. But I always remember that it’s God who gives the strength in everything we do.

Numbers 11:14

” I cannot carry all these people by myself; the burden is too heavy for me”

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My stay at the beach was for just a few hours as  it was pretty close to home so I decided to head back home. However it was a good experience first of all for myself and with my family. Another thing that I learned is to love yourself first; it you are burnt out take time to recuperate from everything and you will see the greater blessing that you will be to someone else… How can you give if you don’t receive yourself the healing from God if you are constantly worrying about the ministry.I missed you guys.. leave a comment below 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻and let me know what everyone was up to this weekend…Shalom💕💗

 

Book Review➕➕💕💕

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Good morning,

Sorry for not being active for a couple of days on the blog; I have been busy and sick. I was  in bed for two days with a really bad headache that would not go; but now I’m feeling much better. Right at this moment I’m reading a book called Spoken For by Robin Gunn and Alyssa Bethke.

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It speaks about dating but most importantly it speaks about our love story with Jesus; how he pursues us with unending love. Another book that I read that touched me when I read it was Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. This book is beautiful it speaks of  topics like self-worth and self-love; choices and consequences but most of all God’s love for you and I. The story is a retelling of the biblical story of Hosea and Gomer but set in the California Gold Rush time. The story starts with little Sarah in New England in 1835 where she lives with her mother in a beautiful cabin. There she meets her father who is a married wealthy man in England. Sarah is the product of an affair between her mother Mae and Mr. Alex Stafford who does not want her and has never wanted her asking Mae to abort the baby before Sarah was born. After the fight between her father and mother they are left destitute as Mae does not want to part from her daughter.

Mae seeks shelter with her parents who want nothing to do with her for her reputation has been tarnished as she was a mistress to a married man. That left her the only option moving to the shacks in the docks to become a prostitute for a living. After a while mae dies from an illness and Sarah is left as an orphaned. She is then sold into becoming the mistress of a rich pedophile. Fast forward 10 years Sarah now called Angel decides to escape Duke and boards a ship to california; where she is robbed of all possessions and money. Her not wanting to be raped by the ship members decides to go into prostitution in a brothel in San Francisco. There she meets Michael Hosea who has gone into town for business. He catches a glimpse of her and after asking God and praying for his future wife; God speaks to him letting him know that Angel was the “One” he had to marry. Michael did not know that this woman was prostitute and after finding out he decides to obey God’s command and pays the fees for Sarah to service him. During this time he talks to her and asks her to marry him which she refuses in different occasions. After an incident that almost leaves Angel dead he marries her and moves her to his house  out in the outskirts.

There Angel is healed and is not treated right by Michael’s family member. Which makes Angel feel more unworthy as she is still battling feelings of self-worth and insecurity as shame, hatred and love. She decides to leave michael and she services someone to drive her to the town so she can go back to prostitution. Michael finds her and pays for her to be freed from the brothel that she is at. During different times she leaves and he keeps seeking until she leaves for three years in  which she finds God, comes face to face with the past and accepts him in her life. She decides to open a house for woman of ill repute( prostitutes) so that they can get out of that life and find a job and where they are tought new abilities to go into trade. At the end she is sought by michael’s family member to be brought back to her husband as he decided not to look for her anymore; she had to go back of her own free will. She decides to leave Sacramento and goes back to michael’s farm and they reunite and they forgive.

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What struck me of this story was Angel’s character; she was a hard woman who suffered too much at a young age and that made choices that continued to break her spiritually and emotional. This woman was scarred and wounded in the deepest part of her soul; she had been mistreated as a child and her body had the scars of it. The choices she made after being married and have been spoken to her about God had consequences not only for her but also for her husband and those around them. Michael’s obedience and steadfast love for God made him a man with a deep commitment with the Lord. His love and pursuit for his wife reminds me off God’s relentless love and pursuit for you and I. Michael never stop praying and hoping that his wife would return and that she would give her life to God; just as Our Father never stops hoping that his son’s and daughter come to his path. Michael showed love where there was hatred and feeling of shame and unworthiness. He showed patience and love where there was fear.

This book to me represent most of all God’s love. Through all that Sarah did God was with her and he loved her and even though her choices took her farther apart from him; he was still there right beside her; helping and guiding her. She had to be at a breaking point for her to see his hand working in her life instead of seeing her husband as her God. Michael was an almost perfect man in the book but after all he was just a man who God used to take and show this woman of a different love then what her parents had in the past. We are like the tree firmly planted in our wants and desires and God is like the wind that moves the leaves and branches and a lot of tree to where he wants them. I can’t recommend this book more than enough; it was just that good.

1.Corinthians 7:23

 You were bought with a price; do not become bond servants of men”

I have not forgotten about the post or posts I will be doing in dating; so don’t worry the day is  getting closer. I will be active in this blog for only three days in this week as I am preparing for the friday of next week as I will be preaching. It makes me so nervous to be on top of that altar and preach I don’t think I will ever get used to it but that it’s what I’m called for. Leave a comment below👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻has anyone of you read this book? what are your thoughts? do you guys want me to do a book review section in the blog I would love to do it as it’s my favorite thing to do.

Devotional➕➕➕💕

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Do You see the beauty in your waking up?

Do You see the love the father has lavished on us….

May the glory of the Lord endure forever;

may the Lord rejoice in His works — 

He who looks at the earth,

and it trembles, who touches the mountains ,

and they smoke.

May his name be praised forever more.

As he is the creator of heaven and earth,

his name shall be exalted in every corner of the world. 

Do you see the wonder in his Love for us?

For he gave his beloved son.

via Daily Prompt: Wonder