Mustard seed….

      Oh you of little faith don’t dismayed. Don’t you know that during the most trebolous times the Lord Almighty is with you and me. Don’t coward in your walk with the Lord;if the God that opened the Red Sea, or the God that fed a crowd of 4,000 is with you what should you fear. Fear nothing believe, that the Lord can free you from bondage, from any sickness or can deliver you from the trial that you are going through in this moment. Where is your faith? Is it in what you see! Or in who is there beside you. Are you like the Israelites that even tho the Lord brought food out of heaven for them to eat during their stay in the dessert their faith was more focused on their idols.  Believe that God can do the impossible in your life, situation or family.

Matthew 7:7-8;

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”

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Let me be after your heart…….

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Help me be the light in this world and not the darkness, Lord.

Help me make a difference in the lives of people, let your presence Holy Spirit flow through me and that the words I say or write; reflect your presence in me.

Lord I want you to use me as you see fit, you know the purpose that you have for me even before I was a thought or formed in my mother’s  womb.

God forgive the iniquities and sin I might have committed in this day. Put in my heart love for the homeless, for the slighted, for the sinner, for the broken, for the unbelievers and for all Lord, because your love is never-ending.

I put my trust in you and my heart and life in your hands that you may do as you will.

Give healing to those who ar sick physically and spiritually.

Multiply the blessings for those who are in need; just as you multiplied the bread and fish for the crowd of thousands.

Anoint us with your oil and give us knowledge so we night not perish.

Strengthend our weaknesses and help us subject our flesh to your will; Lord.

In the name of Jesus I ask; Amen.img_0051

Favor in front of the Lord?

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Wisdom such a small word but with a deep meaning. The worldly definition of wisdom is this by the Webster dictionary ” good sense(judgement)”. Now the book of proverbs speak about wisdom this way;

“Happy is the men who finds wisdom, And the man who gains understanding”; And also “For whoever finds me finds life, And obtains favor from the LORD;” that’s what some of the proverbs chapters says. But ask yourselves this question in which way do you think that you have wisdom. Through the eyes of the Lord or your own.? To have wisdom you also have to have understanding. Wisdom doesn’t always come from old age. The Lord didn’t always use old or same gender to show wisdom.For example we have people like Joseph, Daniel, Ruth, Deborah and even Esther and many more.

We forget that we are all the same in the eyes of the Lord. We are all cleaned from sin and iniquity. We have all received salvation through Jesus Christ sacrifice. No one is more than the rest. Wisdom is obtained by being obedient to God first and foremost. Second comes through reading the Bible  and understanding the word. What  other thing to teach you more about the world and what It brings then the Bible?. Third we got our older generation grandparents, parents, elders from church that have gone through what we might not have and they shared their experiences so that you don’t have to make the same mistakes as them.

Proverbs 3: 5-7

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and depart from evil.”
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Forget about your pride and ego. Humble yourselves to the counsel of other that have gone through the trial and have won the victory. If I could go back in time and actually listened to the people who gave me counsel when I need it the most. Instead of thinking that I knew what was  best for myself; thinking that I had more knowledge than them. I’m going to share with you two verse that just summarize what I’m trying to say here. In job 12:12-13 it’s says;

“Wisdom is with aged men, And with length of days, understanding. “With Him are wisdom and strength, He has counsel and understanding.”  Read again that part that says with Him….. Job  is not talking about himself in this sentence because he knows that he doesn’t hold the knowledge that God does. Only God knows what is going to happen.? What you might be going  through right in this moment? Only he knows the outcome. Our father is the only one that can give strength to the weak, understanding to us and can give us a word of encouragement through your toughest trial.
‭Forget about your own understating and let the Lord guide every step of the way through his word and wisdom; after all he is the All Mighty.

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P.S. God bless everyone and remember to like and share. Hope this word brings strength and grips your hearts and never lets go.

As you said…..

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John 4:23
” The hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.”

Many of you know that my passion is to read books as I shared in a previous post; it’s what I love to do and  it’s more than a hobby for me. However many of you don’t know that another thing that inspires me a lot is music. Music is an essential part for me when I’m praying; because it can help me feel the presence of the holy spirit there with me. That doesn’t mean that if I don’t have music on I can’t feel him; because I can but it’s just makes a deeper connection; because I feel with the music I’m giving worship to him and making him notice my prayer. And one of the songs that inspires me and makes me bawl my eyes out and just get to that higher place of holiness is this song that I’m going to tell you guys about. It’s called Como Dijiste which translated means As You Said and it’s sung by Christine D’Clairo; it’s a song that touches my heart and breaks me to pieces and puts me back together. The lyrics and meaning of that song reminds me daily that even though I can’t see him or sometimes I don’t feel him; he is there with me through every trial and through every happy moment. And this are the lyrics;

Move the pond in my being.

Unite me to your river, give me life.

I do not know what words to say,

that cause you to love me

more than you love me .

 

[Chorus:]

Come Lord, as you said

Pour out your glory, pour out your glory.

Come Lord, as you said

Pour out your glory, pour out your glory.

 

Overcome my darkness with your light

Be my strength today, Oh Jesus

Find my hiding place,

catch me if I run away

Flood me with your love…

 

[Chorus x2]

 

You love me like a father, like a brother,

like a fierce lion, like no one else.

With strength you look for me, to embrace me,

You wrap me in your love.

 

[Chorus x1½]

 

You love me like a father, like a brother,

like a fierce lion, like no one else.

With strength you look for me, to embrace me,

You wrap me in your love.

 

Wrap me, ohh come…

 

This song reminds me that he fights for me and loves me unconditionally even though I might stray away from him in my weakest moments. He is there pursing me without stopping; because he has seen my flaws when he was at the cross and he still gave his life for my salvation and your salvation. You know one of the constant thing I ask the Lord when I pray is that he will take any iniquity or any root of evil or wickedness out of my heart. I will share with you a part of my prayer. So here it goes.

 Father in the name of Jesus I come bared to you without any pretense; you have seen my flaws, my nakedness, the wickedness of my heart Lord.I ask  you in this night or day that you transform my life each and everyday Lord, Glorify yourself through me. Use me as a vessel even though I might be a broken one; use me God for the purpose that you foresaw before I was formed in my mother’s womb Lord. I ask that you fill me with your Holy Spirit; that you anoint me with your oil Lord. Forgive the sins that I have committed and I ask you Lord that you make me a true worshiper as David was after your own heart. Father in your name I ask that you make me humble Lord; put love in my heart for everyone; let it be a different color, different race, ethnicity or religion. Lord move any stumbling rock( or pond) that is in my life; that blocks my spiritual life from fulfilling the purpose that you have for me.

Sometime we still cling to stuff that it’s blocking the Lord from fulfilling his purpose. Free yourself from those ties or blocks that just make your faith shake. Let the Lord work in your life and give your life freely to God; because he loves you and me as a father, brother or fierce lion; ready to fight to death for us. Don’t forget that his love is so unselfish that he gave his only begotten son to die on the cross for you and me. Help me pray for those lives that need to come to his path, we need to lift our voices to God so that he can hear our cries and prayers,

P.S. Remember like, share and comment on the post that way we can get more attention to this type of blogs and we can bring people into God’s path. God bless everyone.

Dry Bones Live!

“The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley; and it was full of bones. 2 Then He caused me to pass by them all around, and behold, there were very many in the open valley; and indeed they were very dry.

God just thinking about this topic makes me want to shout and jump I don’t know what it is but it’s a topic that we need to talk about. Can you imagine yourself in a valley or actually let’s called it a dump because when I read this chapter that whole vision gives me a creepy feel. Lord forgive me but it’s the truth I don’t understand how the prophet Ezekiel did not scream or had some kind of humane reaction. Actually I think I do it says in verse 1;

“The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley, and it was full of bones.”

Can you imagine yourself standing in a dump full of bones? It would almost be like the Zombie apocalypse. img_0007 But way worse you can see the white skeletons and skulls with no eyes. It’s a picture for a nightmare but the Lord knew what he was doing because this graphic picture would strike and stay with us when we read about it or when Ezekiel told  about it. Imagine the smell of decay
( death) in that place is says that “the bones were very dry “v2 not dry but very dry. When something is dead it smells horrible;  one day I had the misfortune to come by the body of a dead animal it was almost done decomposing. Now this vision brings terror to our lives when we read about it because that’s how most of our spiritual life is like. Dead, dry, and why is that you might wonder?. Well because instead of letting God bring the breath of life back to our lives we out in the world doing what our heart desires instead of listening to God’s voice.

5 Thus says the Lord God to these bones: “Surely I will cause breath to enter into you, and you shall live.”

This generation just about gives me depression in the way that our spiritual life is like. What’s is holding you back from letting the Lord enter into your life and give that breath of life that you desperately need. Is it what the world offers? What people might think about you? Your fear of failure? What is the obstacle that blocks the Lord from working in us. Did you know that when we don’t have God in us we’re dead, we stink of decay because; we don’t have the one that gives life to us in our heart and lives. We stink of the world and all the deadness that is in the world. In our little human mind we only think what’s good for our body; there comes a moment when you got to think beyond all of that. Questions yourself and your belief many people don’t believe there’s  a hell or heaven; I do believe there are two places that you might go to one of them after you die. Think more about where you are gonna end up? Or who is gonna have your back during a hard time because let me tell you; you might depend on someone probably a friend/s or family member/s but one thing you might be sure of is that he will be there.

“I will put sinews on you and bring flesh upon you, cover you with skin and put breath in you; and you shall live. Then you shall know that I am the Lord.”

Let the Lord give breath of life to those dry bones in your life, accept the Lord Crist as your savior if you haven’t or if you have and have wandered away from the right path repent and come back to his path. Believe that he will give life and will cover you every single day of your life; even though you might not think he is there. He will make you a strong army; we need a generation that wants to serve the Lord with all of their heart. A generation that spreads the word through the nation helping free thousands over thousands of people from the chains that have them bound to the world. Or people who help bring life to millions of souls that are dying each and every day spiritually from the filth and hard times that are in the world. I hope I’m doing my best in providing the spread of his word a little bit farther away across the nations. Rise a new through the power of the God in the name of Jesus Christ; be a generation that is not afraid but a generation that has the power to give freedom to thousands of people just by saying “Jesus Loves you” to someone in the street; be a difference.

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P.S. God Bless, I will be posting more. I’m almost done with the 21 days of fasting. Remember Jesus Loves You and share,like and tweet my post let’s spread the word and love of our savior.

Battle Your Way To Victory.

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How many have you read the story of Jonah.? Well I think most of you even know it by memory alone. Today I’m going to be talking about the fish not Jonah. Some think it was a whale another think as a big fish but truth to be told I can’t even imagine what kind of fish it was. We don’t know what the sea had back them or what it has nowadays. Of course we have advanced in science from those times in the Bible. Even the word says that “science or knowledge would increase” D 12:4.

Anyway let me get back on track. Can you imagine a big fish coming out of nowhere and swallowing Jonah after he was thrown from the ship. I can’t imagine that but if we focus In verse 17 of chapter 1 of Jonah we would understand; this is what it says;

“17 Now the Lord had prepared a great fish to swallow up Jonah. And Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.”

Many versions of the bible have prepared, provided or appointed but it has the same meaning.  What I’m trying to get here; is that God was the one who called or even allowed( if you wan to go in that direction) this fish to swallow Jonah. We are like Jonah;  we decide what’s right or what’s wrong; even sometimes we go over and we think we can direct God to do what we want not what he has plan for us. When I read the book of Jonah I never actually paid attention to the scripture I just read the word; it’s like when you eat without tasting the food and you miss out on all the goodness and flavor. For me the fish represents a trial that he had to go through to teach him a lesson as probably a fish or trial is in your life in this moment trying to teach you to battle, to strengthened you spiritual self.Sometimes the Lord provides this hardships and trials for us to see what we will do in a hard situation; if we are going to throw the towel and say “I’m done” or if you say;  ” I’m going to come out victorious at the end of this trial”.Whatever addiction you are trying to battle or sickness and it’s not because, he doesn’t love of us that he gives us this situation.Actually he loves way too much; we don’t deserve his love or mercy.

Romans 8:38-39

“38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

I’m going to share a personal story with you guys today. When I was sixteen years old my mother was diagnosed with 5 degenerated disks in her spine. It was a hard thing to go through as family because, back then my brother was lost in drugs and alcohol. It was only me, my father and her. But he had to work because my mother was laid off. So at the end it was only me and her during this hardship. There were moments when I cried out from my bed and I would scream and shout in my head to God asking him ;”Why have you abandon us”, ” Why have you given up on us”, “Why did this happened to us”Or the best one yet, ” Don’t you love us”. I didn’t know that what he was doing; putting that situation in our lives, he was teaching me and my mother how to battle. I can’t say that I did because, I did not but what I can say it’s that I saw my mother struggle and continue on even though she could not stand, sleep or even walk sometimes. We even had to carry her everywhere most of the time.

Matthew 11:28

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and loaded down with burdens, and I will give you rest. “

During those three years I went through the motions of being a christian; I was rebelling against the Lord for what he had done to us. The book  of Jonah speaks to my life a lot because I was that rebellious with him; I thought in my own child like mind that if I behaved that way I was going to make him give in. It was an act of a petulant child; when he or she don’t get what they want. However those three years I saw a spiritual woman who did not give up; even though she was given the diagnosis of being 99% in a wheelchair by the end of that year or that her middle son was lost to drugs and alcohol. I saw a woman who believed in her God and at the end came out victorious. He restored those 5 disks to health and rescued her son from alcohol,drugs and even death. Don’t give up on what you are going through right now because, he is there right beside you. I gave up and I regret it because it was one of the reason I got so lost in those years spirituality and it brought me a battle within myself. I wish I have had the strength and courage to battle it out but it took me until last year to learn to battle and I’m still a beginner( a baby actually) in this.Don’t give up he will fight for you and with you; just don’t quit on it. Put the armor of GOD.

Exodus 14:14

“The LORD shall fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.”

P.s. God bless you all.

A stronger Me.

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Hi everyone and Happy New Year to all. This year will be an incredible year filled with the Lord. I will be more focused on the Lord and things that will bring me closer to him. I know last year was depressing for me; I was more focused in the things of the world and not actually actively seeking the Lord. However I have decided that this year will be different because, I’m putting everything in God’s hand I know he won’t fail me.

I am not thinking it won’t be hard because I know it will be but, if my focus, and my passion is with him and I wait for his timing everything will come out great. I have started this year with fasting. Twenty one days of fasting actually; I know some might think “goodness gracious, that’s a lot”; however I will be stopping in every day so it won’t be twenty-one days head on without stopping. In this fasting I hope that God continues to work on my life and the lives that are out there in the world.

I won’t lie it has been pretty hard with the fasting, I have noticed that because, I haven’t been actively doing it has become harder for me. I have noticed that if I weren’t fasting I will be eating constantly or that every thought, action or word that I might do or speak I need to pause and think and see if it is pleasing to the eyes of the Lord. I know that from this twenty-one days he will be breaking the chains Or yoke that is in my life. I’m putting my faith in him that I will come out victorious and I will be a new woman in the Lord.

Lets put God as our main resolution this year because, when we put him before any other need; he fulfills our needs that we might have.

Matthew 6:33

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.”
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P.s: Let me know what resolutions you have this year or if you guys need any prayers. God bless.

Let Him Glorify Himself Through You & Me…

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Hello guys today’s post will be a little bit different then the usual ones.When I created this blog, I didn’t know what I was doing; actually I still don’t. However this feeling that I needed to be doing something more kept bugging me. I didn’t know what to do, what it was actually; and out of nowhere this thought came to my mind.

Why don’t I create a blog.? Back when I was younger I created another blog to review non christian books back then. I think I only reviewed one book and  I deleted the blog. Now this blog is completely different, because I’m not doing something for the world. This is for the glory and honor of my God.

Colossians‬ ‭3:23‬

“And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men,”

‭‭Anyways back to the topic, I didn’t know what I was going to write in it, because to be honest I love english but I don’t think I’m that good at it and I just didn’t have anything to write about. But this little voice kept bugging me and I decided to create one; however I told the Lord that he needed to give me the words of what he wanted me to write. Now many of you guys might think that because, of what I write I might not have my struggles or that I’m living a holy life with the Lord; but I’m here to be raw  and honest with you tonight. I’m spiritually weak sometimes it’s hard for me as a christian girl to live his word and commandments in the world today. That doesn’t mean I don’t try my best not to disappoint him and myself. Because sometimes I sin quite often in the way I act, speak or think. This next verse is everything to me when I am feeling ashamed; I know that it’s not just my flesh that I’m fighting against but also that I’m fighting against spiritual being in the spiritual world.

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6:12‬ ‭

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.”

I have struggled a lot most of the time I don’t understand why.? I was raised since I was a child to believe there was a higher being or God;  out there that loved me through thick and thin but at the same time that he was not a God to play with.And I remember that it got hard as I hit my teenage years. I wanted to do everything my friends were doing ; if they were going to dances( no christian stuff) I wanted to go; if they had a boyfriend I wanted one too. However I still had this front or facade as some might call it of going to church; there were times were I just went because,  my parents forced me to go I would just go through the motions. As I got older I got into the literature world. I love reading I don’t know where that came from because when I was in middle school I detested even seeing a book. However what happens next shows you that the enemy can use anyone to sink you deeper and take you out from the purpose of what God wants to do with you. When one of my friends showed me a book that she was reading it was a book that had some kind of erotic feel it and I liked it; back then I had stopped searching for the presence of God and it sunk me deeper in the black hole that was my life. I would go to the library and check out adults book that were not meant for my age to read and from there on it would start the struggle of holiness versus wickedness.

1 John 1:7

“But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”
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This will become a battle that will continue for years to come. I never thought that a simple act would give an opening for the enemy to control my life. It has been hard to let this go; I think mostly because I haven’t let the Lord do his job on me. Most people struggle with drugs or alcohol; for example we have the wife of the prophet Hosea; she would sell herself to the highest bidder. But my addiction was these  type of books that dirty my soul and mind, I felt ashamed and I still do sometimes. I felt as if I wasn’t worthy of him. It’s a daily struggle my passion is reading it’s what I love to do and I plan on writing my own books later on. But I don’t plan to feel that way my whole life for something that just distanced me from his presence in my life. There are times I caved in and I’m ashamed. However there are  times that I have stopped myself. Because I know it’s a door that I let the enemy come through when I wasn’t properly seeking the Lord as I should have. I do have my struggles but, the only one who knows is the one above; even though  there is no shame on letting someone know. But be careful in who you confide ; you will want someone who will help you not bring you down. Most of the time we trust the wrong person and we end up worse than before; see that the person you  tell has a deeply committed life with the Lord or put it in prayer and the Lord will guide you to that person. I’m ashamed to say I didn’t do that and it brought guilt to my life. Be brave and honest with the person you choose after all they will put you in their prayers so that God give  you the strength that you need to come through that trial victorious.

Philippians 4:13

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
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P.S. Let me know in the comments some of your favorites verses of the bible. God Bless & Happy New Year..

Feliz Navidad or Merry Christmas!!!

Merry Christmas from the youth of House of Prayer!

In Matthew 1:23
“The virgin is going to have a baby. She will give birth to a son. And he will be called Immanuel.” And Isaiah 7:14 “The name Immanuel means “God with us.”

Hello everyone I hope you are having a wonderful christmas. I hope you are all enjoy time with all your family and friends. This christmas has been a amazing one, I had the time to spend it with my love ones and my brothers and sisters from church. I know some of you; don’t have your family members with you for different reasons; however always remember that God is always with you. This day don’t forget to give thanks to the Lord for his mercy and grace and the privilege he gave to us the gentiles to have salvation through the sacrifice his son gave.

I have many things to be grateful about first and foremost the salvation he gave and his never ending love. His constant search for us is the most wonderful and romantic gesture anyone can have. It’s a love that is not selfish; it’s actually a love that redeems our lives forever. How can you give thanks to this amazing God for everything that he does. Give thanks in your actions and worship and praise; we need to learn to praise him with everything that we got. 

Some of you, may have lost a loved one this year; However I hope that God brings you peace to your life in this day. It’s not easy to lose a loved one but remember that the Almoighty is with you always; as he was with the Israelites when they were at the dessert looking for the promised land. Always  remember that a Christ or Messiah was born two thousand and 16 years ago and that he was the most precious gift that could be given to us. Because he brought peace and comfort and word to our lives.

Isaiah 9:6

“A child will be born to us. A son will be given to us. He will rule over us. And he will be called Wonderful Adviser and Mighty God. He will also be called Father Who Lives Forever and Prince Who Brings Peace.”

I hope you have a Merry Christmas and that God guides your life as it’s his will.

P.s. comment at the bottom what are you most grateful for this year or all?

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Review

Hello everyone it has been about two months since I told you that I was reading this book called Jesus>Religion by Jefferson Bethke; Well yesterday was the day I was done reading it. I was going post the review last night; however a friend came by to watch the cowboys game and I wasn’t able to. So let me go ahead and write it tonight I hope you guys like it and give it a try.

Jesus> Religion I think it’s a pretty self-explanatory title or it just might confuse you. For me it confused me.. I have heard about the video that Mr.Bethke made but, I never seen it. I was pretty skeptical and I went into this book skeptical and with precautions; why you may ask. Well first of all I have to be careful of the books I read because, any wacko nowadays thinks that he can write what he thinks its considered his mighty opinion. Guys some might not like this review but being raw and honest here. A lot might say what aren’t you suppose to be a christian.? Well I am a christian and just because , I’m a christian it does not mean I’m going to read stuff that don’t go with what I believe in. For example; it’s like if you opened your house to a person that doesn’t share your same values or beliefs; you guys are gonna clash over anything.

Anyways let’s go back to the review the first few chapters I was in for a treat; I was constantly in shocked, furious, guilty, ashamed, sad and free. Wait you are probably thinking I’m on something right. But now this book broke a lot of stereotypes that are on christian nowadays myself included. There is a part in the book where Jefferson was talking to this guy about Jesus and the guy responded with this;

” I could never follow Jesus; I still want to drink beer.” and Jefferson’s thought was ” I still drink beer and don’t hate gays.” I’m not gonna lie this line  took me back a step. I come from an old way pentecostal church and I have been taught that drinking is a sin and I still believe it. So reading this in the first pages of the book had me with a dumbfounded expression on my face probably; and I kept thinking ; what is this dude talking about? Are you freaking serious.? At that moment I was actually criticizing him not actually caring what the rest of the book might say or if the Lord might speak to my life through this book and  my want to read the book it diminished. I was doing what Jefferson was talking about in the book that christians nowadays care about the superficial how you look to others instead of how really your life is with Jesus from the inside out.

By this time this guy had me hook with the way he was actually giving example to every single question coming in my mind just in his book. He cleared stereotypes that I had but never really addressed. Him saying that we use the Lord as a whim or as a personal credit card or santa when we want something for our own wants, but we never consider what we can actually give him instead. It’s something I have done various times and it shames me; because this wonderful Almighty God decided to give his only son as sacrifice for my life and the sins I have committed or might commit even though I wasn’t in the world yet.

John 3:16

” For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son; that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

Now this book really touched my heart I remember crying two night ago reading it, because the Lord decided to actually make me see inside myself if I was really without sin. It touched my heart when he address his addiction with porn and lust, because it’s something that most of us go through and a lot of christian youth nowadays go through but don’t know how to reach out. I just love that he actually wrote was he was thinking and feeling in those moments when he felt the suffocation and the pressure to commit the sin and the afterward result.

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“I was lying there, swimming in my own shame and guilt, when this still, small voice whispered into the depth of my soul:

I Love you, I Desire You, I Delight in You, I saw you were going to do that before I went to the cross, and I still went.

This page made me bawl my eyes out because it’s like in the moment I was going through every single thing he went through; I just can’t explain it. His writing and rawness made me notice the truth in what he was writing. It made me realize that I have been a hypocrite; I have been living like the religious leaders of the time the Christ walked on earth instead of living how Jesus lived by loving and forgiving myself from every sin and iniquity that had built-in my heart over the years. God wants us to be the real us, he wants me to stop worrying what anyone will think if I go out to eat with my friend alone; or that if anyone found out that I was hurt when I was younger by a family member it is a wound that hasn’t close itself since it happened.

I can definitely say that this book has made me search inside my heart and really look at my self in the mirror. Am I living what I preach or write about in this blog.? I throughly hope that you give this book a try and leave your thoughts in the comments.

P.S. God bless all of you.

 

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Grace Upon Grace

A life-long journey of faith, visions, dreams and living them out all by God's grace alone. “For from His fullness we have all received, grace upon grace.” -John 1:16

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