Worst pain imaginable……(Sad Face)

Look how swollen it was…..

Hey everyone I hope this week has started as a blessing to all of you, for  me I will say that it has been a blessing in disguise. On Sunday afternoon; after I came back from watching Fate of the Furious( forced by brother and best friend) I never thought that I would end my afternoon in the way that  it did… it all started with two things… heels and steps.

You can imagine that combination brought some really hard consequences. When I was younger I would always wish to know what it felt like to break my leg or foot or just sprained it. You guys might wonder and say to yourselves by reading this “is she a masochist or something” and my answer would be nope. I have always been a person that over analyze everything and I’m pretty curious too. I feel like I need to know everything. Anyways I never thought I would have on Sunday ( Resurrection day) I know pretty it’s cliche right.

So I had put my left foot in the first step of my stairs and my mother came out from the house; and I just lost focus. So I take that step with my left leg and my right leg is behind me and out of nowhere my right foot bends the other way popping out the bone from its place from my foot.

There was an eerie silence before my screams and cries came out from my mouth because of the  pain. I have never in my life felt pain like that, I felt like something was being ripped out from my body. Feeling that, it made me think about what Jesus went through while he was being whipped, hit, punch, and every part of his body was being broken and disfigured. I can’t compare the pain I felt to his pain; but I understand and I appreciate his sacrifice and the amount of love he had for you and I. Feeling even a small of pain like Sunday’s I understand that nothing in the world can compare to that love.

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.”
‭‭John‬ ‭3:16-17‬

For that immense love and sacrifice that the Father and Son did for humanity it’s why we have the right to be here at this moment breathing, reading or living life. But how many times do we thank them? I know I don’t do it as much as it should be but from now on i have decided that i have to change not only for me but for them and everyone else. We are the light in midst of the darkness; always remember that you are God’s creation and that you serve a purpose in this world.

I ended up with just bruises that will disappear in a week from my ordeal by the Lord ended up with holes in his hands and feet that will forever represent our salvation, redemption and eternal life. Give your life to the Lord if you haven’t yet because there is no greater love or sacrifice that someone has done for unworthy sinners like us. God bless you all and I love you all, I hope we can continue to walk in this path that is not easy but it’s not impossible either. 

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What type of branch are you in the vine?

I planted you in the Land like a special vine of the very best stock.

Why in the world have you turned into something like a wild vine; that produces rotten, foul-smelling grapes.?

Jeremiah 2:19-22

The vine in the Old Testament represents Israel and in the New Testament it is said in the book of John that Jesus Christ was described as the “True Vine”. The one that fulfilled the purpose the Father had given Israel. Back in the Old Testament Israel was chosen by God because, he something worthy in them; However because of their idolatry, ungratefulness and the pleasures of their own flesh; they rejected God’s order.

““I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser.”

‭‭John‬ ‭15:1‬ 

The word says that we are part of the body of Jesus Christ and the Lord is described as the “True Vine”; the one that gave his life for the salvation and eternal life of humanity. A vine is where grapes are made and grapes are fruits; and from that fruit you get juice. In the spiritual sense Jesus Christ is the vine and we are the branches that bear fruit. If we don’t live in the vine that is the Lord; How can we as his body bear fruits for his and the father’s glory? So my question for you and myself is;

                                             WHAT TYPE OF BRANCH ARE YOU IN THE VINE?

Are you the type that bears fruit? Or is it crooked? Or dry and dead? How are you living your life with the Lord. Last week was Easter week for many is the memoir of the death and resurrection of our savior. Many last week were saints for the week; however are they trying to live that way from then on. God asks  of us to try to be Holy; he knows we are human and that we have flesh.; that our spirit is weak but don’t forget that his son was also flesh and that he died to give you redemption and salvation through his sacrifice. There is no excuse that will satisfy him you have to try to abide in him and live like him. Separated from the wickedness that surround us; we have to give example of who we are to the world.

““I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.

“By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples.”

‭‭John‬ ‭15:5, 8‬ 

My Question still stands; What type of branch are you in the vine?

Are you a crooked vine? That in one moment you are a representation of God and the next you are lost to the world. Are you a withered and dead branch? That once you walked in God’s path; however you lost your way to the world and now you are in the world. Or are you a branch that gives fruit?  That you try to walk the path that you know is hard but not impossible to walk. God wants you to be a branch that is in the vine( in his body) to give fruit so that other may come and eat from that fruit and be saved. It doesn’t mean that he can’t restored the other type; it just means that they need to want his help and his presence in there lives. He is coming soon and we as his body need to take his word to different races, nations; so that they can also have salvation through him. 

“If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you.”

‭‭John‬ ‭15:7‬ ‭

Be Light & Not Darkness…..

Missionary Nelly Estrada/ Newark, New Jersey

Hello everyone it has been a couple of weeks since I posted. I think you guys deserve an explanation as why. I haven’t been much online or have posted because in one part I have had kind of like a writer’s block. I felt insecure of a lot of my post. I kept wondering to myself if what I was writing to you guys I was living it. And if my readers where actually liking what I was writing. It was a door that I opened to the enemy in my mind. I know the purpose that God gave me was a challenging one, and I know that no everyone is going to want to read what I have to say. However I believe that the Lord is my strength and fortress so it was a needed break that I took but I’m back with more passion and strength then before.

Goodness gracious, I wish I could explain everything that the Lord has done in my life. There was restoration in my family in these coupled of weeks. We had a guest over in our house this month. She is a missionary and a prophet of the Lord. Guys the way the Lord uses her; it’s amazing. It’s an inspiration for me to be used by the Lord as he uses her. The Lord used his maidservant to bring word to my entire family and the people from my church. It was in the Lord’s timing that she could be here as  she lives in New Jersey and she is always out of the country.l Anyways let me continue to the rest because if I continue I will never stop.

“but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct,”
‭‭I Peter‬ ‭1:15‬ ‭

The Lord brought word that cut deeply into our hearts and confronted us with the way we were walking it was a double edge sword; it cut us but at the same time it restored us. The preachings that she brought were about Holiness. It is require of us to be holy and cleaned in front of the God. At the end Jesus Christ was Holy and we also shall strive to be. Nowadays we christians are not living the way we should. You can’t separate a christian from the unbeliever; as what the unbeliever is doing most believers are doing also. How are you different? I know it’s hard to be different in a world that everyone wants the same stuff.

“They profess to know God, but in works they deny Him, being abominable, disobedient, and disqualified for every good work.”

‭‭Titus‬ ‭1:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

At the end of the day we should be apart from the darkness because we are light. God wants brave people that reject what is offered to them in the word. Because we need to deny ourselves to serve the Lord. Deny what your heart or body wants. Remember that we are the temple of the Holy Spirit; and at the end we have to give testimony of Gods presence in our lives. In many ways I was walking wrong in God’s path before and I’m grateful that God decided to send someone to speak to me about these kind of things because at the end of all;  God needs warriors to spread his word to the world.

P.S. I miss you all and I hope God keeps blessing your lives spiritually; God bless.

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Mustard seed….

      Oh you of little faith don’t dismayed. Don’t you know that during the most trebolous times the Lord Almighty is with you and me. Don’t coward in your walk with the Lord;if the God that opened the Red Sea, or the God that fed a crowd of 4,000 is with you what should you fear. Fear nothing believe, that the Lord can free you from bondage, from any sickness or can deliver you from the trial that you are going through in this moment. Where is your faith? Is it in what you see! Or in who is there beside you. Are you like the Israelites that even tho the Lord brought food out of heaven for them to eat during their stay in the dessert their faith was more focused on their idols.  Believe that God can do the impossible in your life, situation or family.

Matthew 7:7-8;

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”


Let me be after your heart…….

img_0052God tonight; I give you the honor and glory that you deserve.

Help me be the light in this world and not the darkness, Lord.

Help me make a difference in the lives of people, let your presence Holy Spirit flow through me and that the words I say or write; reflect your presence in me.

Lord I want you to use me as you see fit, you know the purpose that you have for me even before I was a thought or formed in my mother’s  womb.

God forgive the iniquities and sin I might have committed in this day. Put in my heart love for the homeless, for the slighted, for the sinner, for the broken, for the unbelievers and for all Lord, because your love is never-ending.

I put my trust in you and my heart and life in your hands that you may do as you will.

Give healing to those who ar sick physically and spiritually.

Multiply the blessings for those who are in need; just as you multiplied the bread and fish for the crowd of thousands.

Anoint us with your oil and give us knowledge so we night not perish.

Strengthend our weaknesses and help us subject our flesh to your will; Lord.

In the name of Jesus I ask; Amen.img_0051

Favor in front of the Lord?


Wisdom such a small word but with a deep meaning. The worldly definition of wisdom is this by the Webster dictionary ” good sense(judgement)”. Now the book of proverbs speak about wisdom this way;

“Happy is the men who finds wisdom, And the man who gains understanding”; And also “For whoever finds me finds life, And obtains favor from the LORD;” that’s what some of the proverbs chapters says. But ask yourselves this question in which way do you think that you have wisdom. Through the eyes of the Lord or your own.? To have wisdom you also have to have understanding. Wisdom doesn’t always come from old age. The Lord didn’t always use old or same gender to show wisdom.For example we have people like Joseph, Daniel, Ruth, Deborah and even Esther and many more.

We forget that we are all the same in the eyes of the Lord. We are all cleaned from sin and iniquity. We have all received salvation through Jesus Christ sacrifice. No one is more than the rest. Wisdom is obtained by being obedient to God first and foremost. Second comes through reading the Bible  and understanding the word. What  other thing to teach you more about the world and what It brings then the Bible?. Third we got our older generation grandparents, parents, elders from church that have gone through what we might not have and they shared their experiences so that you don’t have to make the same mistakes as them.

Proverbs 3: 5-7

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and depart from evil.”

Forget about your pride and ego. Humble yourselves to the counsel of other that have gone through the trial and have won the victory. If I could go back in time and actually listened to the people who gave me counsel when I need it the most. Instead of thinking that I knew what was  best for myself; thinking that I had more knowledge than them. I’m going to share with you two verse that just summarize what I’m trying to say here. In job 12:12-13 it’s says;

“Wisdom is with aged men, And with length of days, understanding. “With Him are wisdom and strength, He has counsel and understanding.”  Read again that part that says with Him….. Job  is not talking about himself in this sentence because he knows that he doesn’t hold the knowledge that God does. Only God knows what is going to happen.? What you might be going  through right in this moment? Only he knows the outcome. Our father is the only one that can give strength to the weak, understanding to us and can give us a word of encouragement through your toughest trial.
‭Forget about your own understating and let the Lord guide every step of the way through his word and wisdom; after all he is the All Mighty.


P.S. God bless everyone and remember to like and share. Hope this word brings strength and grips your hearts and never lets go.

As you said…..

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John 4:23
” The hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.”

Many of you know that my passion is to read books as I shared in a previous post; it’s what I love to do and  it’s more than a hobby for me. However many of you don’t know that another thing that inspires me a lot is music. Music is an essential part for me when I’m praying; because it can help me feel the presence of the holy spirit there with me. That doesn’t mean that if I don’t have music on I can’t feel him; because I can but it’s just makes a deeper connection; because I feel with the music I’m giving worship to him and making him notice my prayer. And one of the songs that inspires me and makes me bawl my eyes out and just get to that higher place of holiness is this song that I’m going to tell you guys about. It’s called Como Dijiste which translated means As You Said and it’s sung by Christine D’Clairo; it’s a song that touches my heart and breaks me to pieces and puts me back together. The lyrics and meaning of that song reminds me daily that even though I can’t see him or sometimes I don’t feel him; he is there with me through every trial and through every happy moment. And this are the lyrics;

Move the pond in my being.

Unite me to your river, give me life.

I do not know what words to say,

that cause you to love me

more than you love me .



Come Lord, as you said

Pour out your glory, pour out your glory.

Come Lord, as you said

Pour out your glory, pour out your glory.


Overcome my darkness with your light

Be my strength today, Oh Jesus

Find my hiding place,

catch me if I run away

Flood me with your love…


[Chorus x2]


You love me like a father, like a brother,

like a fierce lion, like no one else.

With strength you look for me, to embrace me,

You wrap me in your love.


[Chorus x1½]


You love me like a father, like a brother,

like a fierce lion, like no one else.

With strength you look for me, to embrace me,

You wrap me in your love.


Wrap me, ohh come…


This song reminds me that he fights for me and loves me unconditionally even though I might stray away from him in my weakest moments. He is there pursing me without stopping; because he has seen my flaws when he was at the cross and he still gave his life for my salvation and your salvation. You know one of the constant thing I ask the Lord when I pray is that he will take any iniquity or any root of evil or wickedness out of my heart. I will share with you a part of my prayer. So here it goes.

 Father in the name of Jesus I come bared to you without any pretense; you have seen my flaws, my nakedness, the wickedness of my heart Lord.I ask  you in this night or day that you transform my life each and everyday Lord, Glorify yourself through me. Use me as a vessel even though I might be a broken one; use me God for the purpose that you foresaw before I was formed in my mother’s womb Lord. I ask that you fill me with your Holy Spirit; that you anoint me with your oil Lord. Forgive the sins that I have committed and I ask you Lord that you make me a true worshiper as David was after your own heart. Father in your name I ask that you make me humble Lord; put love in my heart for everyone; let it be a different color, different race, ethnicity or religion. Lord move any stumbling rock( or pond) that is in my life; that blocks my spiritual life from fulfilling the purpose that you have for me.

Sometime we still cling to stuff that it’s blocking the Lord from fulfilling his purpose. Free yourself from those ties or blocks that just make your faith shake. Let the Lord work in your life and give your life freely to God; because he loves you and me as a father, brother or fierce lion; ready to fight to death for us. Don’t forget that his love is so unselfish that he gave his only begotten son to die on the cross for you and me. Help me pray for those lives that need to come to his path, we need to lift our voices to God so that he can hear our cries and prayers,

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