Be Light & Not Darkness…..

Missionary Nelly Estrada/ Newark, New Jersey

Hello everyone it has been a couple of weeks since I posted. I think you guys deserve an explanation as why. I haven’t been much online or have posted because in one part I have had kind of like a writer’s block. I felt insecure of a lot of my post. I kept wondering to myself if what I was writing to you guys I was living it. And if my readers where actually liking what I was writing. It was a door that I opened to the enemy in my mind. I know the purpose that God gave me was a challenging one, and I know that no everyone is going to want to read what I have to say. However I believe that the Lord is my strength and fortress so it was a needed break that I took but I’m back with more passion and strength then before.

Goodness gracious, I wish I could explain everything that the Lord has done in my life. There was restoration in my family in these coupled of weeks. We had a guest over in our house this month. She is a missionary and a prophet of the Lord. Guys the way the Lord uses her; it’s amazing. It’s an inspiration for me to be used by the Lord as he uses her. The Lord used his maidservant to bring word to my entire family and the people from my church. It was in the Lord’s timing that she could be here as  she lives in New Jersey and she is always out of the country.l Anyways let me continue to the rest because if I continue I will never stop.

“but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct,”
‭‭I Peter‬ ‭1:15‬ ‭

The Lord brought word that cut deeply into our hearts and confronted us with the way we were walking it was a double edge sword; it cut us but at the same time it restored us. The preachings that she brought were about Holiness. It is require of us to be holy and cleaned in front of the God. At the end Jesus Christ was Holy and we also shall strive to be. Nowadays we christians are not living the way we should. You can’t separate a christian from the unbeliever; as what the unbeliever is doing most believers are doing also. How are you different? I know it’s hard to be different in a world that everyone wants the same stuff.

“They profess to know God, but in works they deny Him, being abominable, disobedient, and disqualified for every good work.”

‭‭Titus‬ ‭1:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

At the end of the day we should be apart from the darkness because we are light. God wants brave people that reject what is offered to them in the word. Because we need to deny ourselves to serve the Lord. Deny what your heart or body wants. Remember that we are the temple of the Holy Spirit; and at the end we have to give testimony of Gods presence in our lives. In many ways I was walking wrong in God’s path before and I’m grateful that God decided to send someone to speak to me about these kind of things because at the end of all;  God needs warriors to spread his word to the world.

P.S. I miss you all and I hope God keeps blessing your lives spiritually; God bless.

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Mustard seed….

      Oh you of little faith don’t dismayed. Don’t you know that during the most trebolous times the Lord Almighty is with you and me. Don’t coward in your walk with the Lord;if the God that opened the Red Sea, or the God that fed a crowd of 4,000 is with you what should you fear. Fear nothing believe, that the Lord can free you from bondage, from any sickness or can deliver you from the trial that you are going through in this moment. Where is your faith? Is it in what you see! Or in who is there beside you. Are you like the Israelites that even tho the Lord brought food out of heaven for them to eat during their stay in the dessert their faith was more focused on their idols.  Believe that God can do the impossible in your life, situation or family.

Matthew 7:7-8;

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”


Let me be after your heart…….

img_0052God tonight; I give you the honor and glory that you deserve.

Help me be the light in this world and not the darkness, Lord.

Help me make a difference in the lives of people, let your presence Holy Spirit flow through me and that the words I say or write; reflect your presence in me.

Lord I want you to use me as you see fit, you know the purpose that you have for me even before I was a thought or formed in my mother’s  womb.

God forgive the iniquities and sin I might have committed in this day. Put in my heart love for the homeless, for the slighted, for the sinner, for the broken, for the unbelievers and for all Lord, because your love is never-ending.

I put my trust in you and my heart and life in your hands that you may do as you will.

Give healing to those who ar sick physically and spiritually.

Multiply the blessings for those who are in need; just as you multiplied the bread and fish for the crowd of thousands.

Anoint us with your oil and give us knowledge so we night not perish.

Strengthend our weaknesses and help us subject our flesh to your will; Lord.

In the name of Jesus I ask; Amen.img_0051

Favor in front of the Lord?


Wisdom such a small word but with a deep meaning. The worldly definition of wisdom is this by the Webster dictionary ” good sense(judgement)”. Now the book of proverbs speak about wisdom this way;

“Happy is the men who finds wisdom, And the man who gains understanding”; And also “For whoever finds me finds life, And obtains favor from the LORD;” that’s what some of the proverbs chapters says. But ask yourselves this question in which way do you think that you have wisdom. Through the eyes of the Lord or your own.? To have wisdom you also have to have understanding. Wisdom doesn’t always come from old age. The Lord didn’t always use old or same gender to show wisdom.For example we have people like Joseph, Daniel, Ruth, Deborah and even Esther and many more.

We forget that we are all the same in the eyes of the Lord. We are all cleaned from sin and iniquity. We have all received salvation through Jesus Christ sacrifice. No one is more than the rest. Wisdom is obtained by being obedient to God first and foremost. Second comes through reading the Bible  and understanding the word. What  other thing to teach you more about the world and what It brings then the Bible?. Third we got our older generation grandparents, parents, elders from church that have gone through what we might not have and they shared their experiences so that you don’t have to make the same mistakes as them.

Proverbs 3: 5-7

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the LORD and depart from evil.”

Forget about your pride and ego. Humble yourselves to the counsel of other that have gone through the trial and have won the victory. If I could go back in time and actually listened to the people who gave me counsel when I need it the most. Instead of thinking that I knew what was  best for myself; thinking that I had more knowledge than them. I’m going to share with you two verse that just summarize what I’m trying to say here. In job 12:12-13 it’s says;

“Wisdom is with aged men, And with length of days, understanding. “With Him are wisdom and strength, He has counsel and understanding.”  Read again that part that says with Him….. Job  is not talking about himself in this sentence because he knows that he doesn’t hold the knowledge that God does. Only God knows what is going to happen.? What you might be going  through right in this moment? Only he knows the outcome. Our father is the only one that can give strength to the weak, understanding to us and can give us a word of encouragement through your toughest trial.
‭Forget about your own understating and let the Lord guide every step of the way through his word and wisdom; after all he is the All Mighty.


P.S. God bless everyone and remember to like and share. Hope this word brings strength and grips your hearts and never lets go.

As you said…..

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John 4:23
” The hour is coming, and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks.”

Many of you know that my passion is to read books as I shared in a previous post; it’s what I love to do and  it’s more than a hobby for me. However many of you don’t know that another thing that inspires me a lot is music. Music is an essential part for me when I’m praying; because it can help me feel the presence of the holy spirit there with me. That doesn’t mean that if I don’t have music on I can’t feel him; because I can but it’s just makes a deeper connection; because I feel with the music I’m giving worship to him and making him notice my prayer. And one of the songs that inspires me and makes me bawl my eyes out and just get to that higher place of holiness is this song that I’m going to tell you guys about. It’s called Como Dijiste which translated means As You Said and it’s sung by Christine D’Clairo; it’s a song that touches my heart and breaks me to pieces and puts me back together. The lyrics and meaning of that song reminds me daily that even though I can’t see him or sometimes I don’t feel him; he is there with me through every trial and through every happy moment. And this are the lyrics;

Move the pond in my being.

Unite me to your river, give me life.

I do not know what words to say,

that cause you to love me

more than you love me .



Come Lord, as you said

Pour out your glory, pour out your glory.

Come Lord, as you said

Pour out your glory, pour out your glory.


Overcome my darkness with your light

Be my strength today, Oh Jesus

Find my hiding place,

catch me if I run away

Flood me with your love…


[Chorus x2]


You love me like a father, like a brother,

like a fierce lion, like no one else.

With strength you look for me, to embrace me,

You wrap me in your love.


[Chorus x1½]


You love me like a father, like a brother,

like a fierce lion, like no one else.

With strength you look for me, to embrace me,

You wrap me in your love.


Wrap me, ohh come…


This song reminds me that he fights for me and loves me unconditionally even though I might stray away from him in my weakest moments. He is there pursing me without stopping; because he has seen my flaws when he was at the cross and he still gave his life for my salvation and your salvation. You know one of the constant thing I ask the Lord when I pray is that he will take any iniquity or any root of evil or wickedness out of my heart. I will share with you a part of my prayer. So here it goes.

 Father in the name of Jesus I come bared to you without any pretense; you have seen my flaws, my nakedness, the wickedness of my heart Lord.I ask  you in this night or day that you transform my life each and everyday Lord, Glorify yourself through me. Use me as a vessel even though I might be a broken one; use me God for the purpose that you foresaw before I was formed in my mother’s womb Lord. I ask that you fill me with your Holy Spirit; that you anoint me with your oil Lord. Forgive the sins that I have committed and I ask you Lord that you make me a true worshiper as David was after your own heart. Father in your name I ask that you make me humble Lord; put love in my heart for everyone; let it be a different color, different race, ethnicity or religion. Lord move any stumbling rock( or pond) that is in my life; that blocks my spiritual life from fulfilling the purpose that you have for me.

Sometime we still cling to stuff that it’s blocking the Lord from fulfilling his purpose. Free yourself from those ties or blocks that just make your faith shake. Let the Lord work in your life and give your life freely to God; because he loves you and me as a father, brother or fierce lion; ready to fight to death for us. Don’t forget that his love is so unselfish that he gave his only begotten son to die on the cross for you and me. Help me pray for those lives that need to come to his path, we need to lift our voices to God so that he can hear our cries and prayers,

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Dry Bones Live!

“The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the Spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley; and it was full of bones. 2 Then He caused me to pass by them all around, and behold, there were very many in the open valley; and indeed they were very dry.

God just thinking about this topic makes me want to shout and jump I don’t know what it is but it’s a topic that we need to talk about. Can you imagine yourself in a valley or actually let’s called it a dump because when I read this chapter that whole vision gives me a creepy feel. Lord forgive me but it’s the truth I don’t understand how the prophet Ezekiel did not scream or had some kind of humane reaction. Actually I think I do it says in verse 1;

“The hand of the Lord came upon me and brought me out in the spirit of the Lord, and set me down in the midst of the valley, and it was full of bones.”

Can you imagine yourself standing in a dump full of bones? It would almost be like the Zombie apocalypse. img_0007 But way worse you can see the white skeletons and skulls with no eyes. It’s a picture for a nightmare but the Lord knew what he was doing because this graphic picture would strike and stay with us when we read about it or when Ezekiel told  about it. Imagine the smell of decay
( death) in that place is says that “the bones were very dry “v2 not dry but very dry. When something is dead it smells horrible;  one day I had the misfortune to come by the body of a dead animal it was almost done decomposing. Now this vision brings terror to our lives when we read about it because that’s how most of our spiritual life is like. Dead, dry, and why is that you might wonder?. Well because instead of letting God bring the breath of life back to our lives we out in the world doing what our heart desires instead of listening to God’s voice.

5 Thus says the Lord God to these bones: “Surely I will cause breath to enter into you, and you shall live.”

This generation just about gives me depression in the way that our spiritual life is like. What’s is holding you back from letting the Lord enter into your life and give that breath of life that you desperately need. Is it what the world offers? What people might think about you? Your fear of failure? What is the obstacle that blocks the Lord from working in us. Did you know that when we don’t have God in us we’re dead, we stink of decay because; we don’t have the one that gives life to us in our heart and lives. We stink of the world and all the deadness that is in the world. In our little human mind we only think what’s good for our body; there comes a moment when you got to think beyond all of that. Questions yourself and your belief many people don’t believe there’s  a hell or heaven; I do believe there are two places that you might go to one of them after you die. Think more about where you are gonna end up? Or who is gonna have your back during a hard time because let me tell you; you might depend on someone probably a friend/s or family member/s but one thing you might be sure of is that he will be there.

“I will put sinews on you and bring flesh upon you, cover you with skin and put breath in you; and you shall live. Then you shall know that I am the Lord.”

Let the Lord give breath of life to those dry bones in your life, accept the Lord Crist as your savior if you haven’t or if you have and have wandered away from the right path repent and come back to his path. Believe that he will give life and will cover you every single day of your life; even though you might not think he is there. He will make you a strong army; we need a generation that wants to serve the Lord with all of their heart. A generation that spreads the word through the nation helping free thousands over thousands of people from the chains that have them bound to the world. Or people who help bring life to millions of souls that are dying each and every day spiritually from the filth and hard times that are in the world. I hope I’m doing my best in providing the spread of his word a little bit farther away across the nations. Rise a new through the power of the God in the name of Jesus Christ; be a generation that is not afraid but a generation that has the power to give freedom to thousands of people just by saying “Jesus Loves you” to someone in the street; be a difference.


P.S. God Bless, I will be posting more. I’m almost done with the 21 days of fasting. Remember Jesus Loves You and share,like and tweet my post let’s spread the word and love of our savior.

Battle Your Way To Victory.


How many have you read the story of Jonah.? Well I think most of you even know it by memory alone. Today I’m going to be talking about the fish not Jonah. Some think it was a whale another think as a big fish but truth to be told I can’t even imagine what kind of fish it was. We don’t know what the sea had back them or what it has nowadays. Of course we have advanced in science from those times in the Bible. Even the word says that “science or knowledge would increase” D 12:4.

Anyway let me get back on track. Can you imagine a big fish coming out of nowhere and swallowing Jonah after he was thrown from the ship. I can’t imagine that but if we focus In verse 17 of chapter 1 of Jonah we would understand; this is what it says;

“17 Now the Lord had prepared a great fish to swallow up Jonah. And Jonah was in the belly of the fish three days and three nights.”

Many versions of the bible have prepared, provided or appointed but it has the same meaning.  What I’m trying to get here; is that God was the one who called or even allowed( if you wan to go in that direction) this fish to swallow Jonah. We are like Jonah;  we decide what’s right or what’s wrong; even sometimes we go over and we think we can direct God to do what we want not what he has plan for us. When I read the book of Jonah I never actually paid attention to the scripture I just read the word; it’s like when you eat without tasting the food and you miss out on all the goodness and flavor. For me the fish represents a trial that he had to go through to teach him a lesson as probably a fish or trial is in your life in this moment trying to teach you to battle, to strengthened you spiritual self.Sometimes the Lord provides this hardships and trials for us to see what we will do in a hard situation; if we are going to throw the towel and say “I’m done” or if you say;  ” I’m going to come out victorious at the end of this trial”.Whatever addiction you are trying to battle or sickness and it’s not because, he doesn’t love of us that he gives us this situation.Actually he loves way too much; we don’t deserve his love or mercy.

Romans 8:38-39

“38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

I’m going to share a personal story with you guys today. When I was sixteen years old my mother was diagnosed with 5 degenerated disks in her spine. It was a hard thing to go through as family because, back then my brother was lost in drugs and alcohol. It was only me, my father and her. But he had to work because my mother was laid off. So at the end it was only me and her during this hardship. There were moments when I cried out from my bed and I would scream and shout in my head to God asking him ;”Why have you abandon us”, ” Why have you given up on us”, “Why did this happened to us”Or the best one yet, ” Don’t you love us”. I didn’t know that what he was doing; putting that situation in our lives, he was teaching me and my mother how to battle. I can’t say that I did because, I did not but what I can say it’s that I saw my mother struggle and continue on even though she could not stand, sleep or even walk sometimes. We even had to carry her everywhere most of the time.

Matthew 11:28

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and loaded down with burdens, and I will give you rest. “

During those three years I went through the motions of being a christian; I was rebelling against the Lord for what he had done to us. The book  of Jonah speaks to my life a lot because I was that rebellious with him; I thought in my own child like mind that if I behaved that way I was going to make him give in. It was an act of a petulant child; when he or she don’t get what they want. However those three years I saw a spiritual woman who did not give up; even though she was given the diagnosis of being 99% in a wheelchair by the end of that year or that her middle son was lost to drugs and alcohol. I saw a woman who believed in her God and at the end came out victorious. He restored those 5 disks to health and rescued her son from alcohol,drugs and even death. Don’t give up on what you are going through right now because, he is there right beside you. I gave up and I regret it because it was one of the reason I got so lost in those years spirituality and it brought me a battle within myself. I wish I have had the strength and courage to battle it out but it took me until last year to learn to battle and I’m still a beginner( a baby actually) in this.Don’t give up he will fight for you and with you; just don’t quit on it. Put the armor of GOD.

Exodus 14:14

“The LORD shall fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.”

P.s. God bless you all.