Who are you in God?

784a5e12-eeac-43e4-9ac3-006f58472206Good morning on this beautiful day, today I will be writing about an issue that many youths, young adults and adults have gone through or are going through this moment in our lives. I will be speaking in the book of 1. Samuel 1:5-8. Hannah was the favored wife of Elkanah an Ephraimite; however, God had closed her womb and she was barren. Now this man had two wives; the second wife would belittle and provoke each time the family would go to give sacrifices to the Lord at Shiloh; Hannah would become sad and she would weep bitterly.

And she was in bitterness of soul, and prayed unto the Lord, and wept sore.11And she vowed a vow, and said, O Lord of hosts, if thou wilt indeed look on the affliction of thine handmaid, and remember me, and not forget thine handmaid, but wilt give unto thine handmaid a man-child, then I will give him unto the Lord all the days of his life, and there shall no razor come upon his head.

Hannah was a woman who had been mistreated not by her husband but by her husband’s second wife and had a view of her self as someone not worthy because she was barren and could not give her husband lineage from her. Hannah’s sorrow and low self-esteem became a tool in God’s hand as he remembered his servant and she was able to conceive.

Many times we doubt ourselves and we do not know who we are in God because of our low self-esteem. We have a distorted view of ourselves as objects of no great importance that cannot come up to something, but that is not who we are in God; in Genesis 1:27 it says;

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.

We were created by God and to resemble him not in physicality as God is Spirit but in spiritual qualities as well as moral and mental obedience to worldly laws. Low self-esteem comes from different causes for example;

  1. Physical Features: we as humans are so focused on our image that we distorted what beauty is and we scrutinize ourselves and find flaws in our person. Proverbs  31:30  says; ” Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.” We do not consist of only flesh but spirit also; someone who might be beautiful on the outside could be ugly on the inside; that leads us to our next point.
  2. Emotional, Physical and Substance abuse: Sometimes we make choices that bring a lot of pain into our lives. We might be in a relationship that becomes abusive mentally, emotionally and physically. This relationship can be a friendship, parental, dating or even work environment. This type of abuse will lead us to have a low self-esteem and will make us want to subdue or escape the pain in any which way and takes us to substance abuse. Many try to forget the pain by looking for oblivion in drugs or alcohol which instead of helping just makes everything worse as that could become an addiction or could bring a lot more severe consequences later on. This brings us to our next point which is,
  3. Tragic Past: Sometimes we have a low self-esteem because of the actions of our past that we have done or have been done to us. When I was younger I had a distorted view of myself because of my past; I thought I was unworthy of love or affection. I saw myself as ugly and lacking in everything; my friendships became my cornerstone which was unhealthy as I was depending on someone else for my happiness.
  4. Sin: From experience, I can testify that sin leaves deep scars that make you feel unworthy and give you low self-esteem. Many times when I remembered all that I had done during my teenage years I would get sad because of the choices that I made; I had to travel a harder road and also that brought my self- esteem low in my personal life as well in my ministry. I felt like a dirty, unclean and tattered rag that was unwanted.

Hannah’s low self-esteem and afflictions became God’s tool. There is a verse that Hannah says is chapter 2 of 1. Samuel and it’s;

Talk no more so exceeding proudly; let not arrogance come out of your mouth: for the Lord is a God of knowledge, and by him actions are weighed.

We might have a beautiful face and our self-esteem could be up to the roof but if our hearts and actions don’t reflect God what is the point of all. God looks into the inside and not the outside; he knows our every thought and desires. We might be able to fool men but not him.

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P.s. Thank you for hanging out with me today; hope to see you on my next blog post which will be a ” Called with a purpose” post. Remember that you are worthy of love and mercy; that God gave his begotten son for you and me in the cross. Don’t let opinion nor words of discouragement bring you down; instead, remember that you were chosen by him and through him, you have been saved. Shalom

Rebuild Your Walls➕➕

img_0189God bless all of you on this beautiful day; as promised on the last blog post in today’s Called with a Purpose post I will be speaking in the book of Nehemiah;  about Nehemiah and his call to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem after they had been destroyed by the Babylonians. As a lot of you probably know he was the cupbearer to the King of Persia Artaxerxes son of Xerxes husband of Esther.

In the first chapter of the book of Nehemiah, it says that after he asked and heard the news about Jerusalem and the people who were sent to exile; he wept and prayed and fasted to the Lord. From verse 5 to 7 you can read and see how his prayer was to God but what calls my attention is verse 6 to 7;

let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of Israel. I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you.We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.

What calls my attention is on the second line of verse 6; where he tells the Lord, ” I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you.” Why was Nehemiah admitting to those sins is the question I ask myself? One thing I have learned in spiritual warfare is that the sins and bondage of past ancestors are still present in our lives and if they are not broken it still has the power to keep us in chains.  One sentence that I use in my prayer is; ” Father at this hour in the name of Jesus Christ and with the authority given to me; I asked that any chain or bondage that is dragging from past generations be broken in Jesus name. ” Another thing that I ask myself is; why was he asking God to turn his ear towards his prayer and to keep his eyes open?. As we know God is a God of mercy and has always been; however the people of Israel always broke the covenant that God had made with them and they didn’t listen when he sent word of repentance through the prophets

Nehemiah was not only praying for the rebuilding of physical walls but also for the spiritual ones. The walls of the nation of Israel were destroyed because of their disobedience through the idolatry of other pagan gods; they didn’t have the ear of the Father anymore. Their relationship with God had crumbled and they needed to build those walls of prayer and communication with God also before the rebuilding of the physical walls. Remember after all; this nation has always been his chosen nation.

He has always responded to their cries and prayers when they actually come to him with a heartfelt repentance. He has always provided for them in times of need and desperation. Nehemiah brings  to mind the command that he gave to Moses to give to the children of Israel in verse 8 and 9 saying;

‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’

However in verse ten; Nehemiah says “they are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand”Almost as if asking God to have pity on them as Nehemiah would go before the King and he wanted the King to show favor and let him go to rebuild the walls with his permission but foremost God’s. Later in chapter 2 of Nehemiah, it seems as God heard his petition because the King saw in his expression when Nehemiah took to him his cup that his expression was of sadness but not of illness instead of heartbreak. And God put favor in the sight of the King for Nehemiah as the King granted Nehemiah the request to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.

Rebuilding the walls did not only take Nehemiah to do it but everyone else; if you read the whole book of Nehemiah you will see that he involved the priests, families and even conflict and opposition were involved in the rebuilding of those walls. The priests were the first to volunteer to rebuild the walls; families got involved and rebuilt sections of the walls as a sign of ownership. How are we rebuilding the spiritual walls of our nation, community, family, and church? Are we involved or are we just seeing from the outside the work that other people are doing? Opposition and conflict rose up in the time of rebuilding; however, did that stop, Nehemiah, from completing the purpose of his call?

Actually, all the opposition and conflict instead made him stay more in the purpose that God had put in him. We have to learn to overcome the conflict’s and circumstances, the injustice that may appear in our way. At the end of all Nehemiah rebuilt the walls and purified the people of Israel just as God wanted, and all that he desired was for God so remember him in favor for all that he had done and for obeying his call and fulfilling it. Let’s scrutinize ourselves and see if we are obeying the call that God has put in our hearts and how are we rebuilding the walls of our community and country but foremost it should be our family; how are you rebuilding the walls of those who have theirs destroyed?

P.S. I hope that this post brings blessing to your life. Let me know your thoughts in the comment section at the bottom; would love to hear from you. Show kindness and love to someone from the time of right now in one aspect of their lives. Shalom🕊

Not Letting the Current Overwhelm Me🌊

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I’m finally back; and foremost I want to apologize because I had written on the last blog post that I would be posting my next Call with a Purpose post; however as I wrote on the post The Brook we are in a situation where at this moment most of the time to be truthful I do not even know how my days go by.

We have been on the search of a house to buy for quite some time now and many of the proposals that we have done to the owners of various house that we have liked; have not gone through. Maybe is because that is not the house that God has for us or maybe we were too late; I just know that my days are being spent on the looking for houses and work and church.

One thing that I have tried my best this two months is to not let the circumstances overwhelm me. There have been moments where I have shouted my frustrations as a release but mostly have prayed over them. In this river of life; we are thrown of balance by the things that happened around us or in us. I have tried to take my attention away from what’s going on by doing certain activities with the youth. For example; last monday the group of girls from the ministry we decided to go roller skating. I can say that I suffered that day; I fell so many times and broke a bunch of my nails plus ripped my dress on the back. I had a lot of fun that day though, so I cannot complain.Through the midst of this God has been there for my family and I seen my father and younger brother start to shake off what had them tied and unresponsive to God’s call.

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Overall this month of august has been a blessing as three members of our church got baptized two Saturdays ago. Those three members were youth that decided to take that step of faith and give their life completely to Jesus. I have seen growth within our youth ministry; we are seeing many of the youth that were asleep have started to wake up. It gives me such a joy to see all of this happening in my personal life and ministry. Glory be to God because he is the one that is working on the lives of this individuals and mine.

On the next blog post I will be speaking about Nehemiah and his call to build the walls of Jerusalem.  This will be the next Call with a Purpose post. Stay tuned, would love to hear from you. Let’s not forget to take at least a day off to reflect and appreciate the beauty that God has left us in this earth. Don’t let your circumstances overwhelm you to the point that you are absent-minded from  your own life as I have been. Go out and smell the roses or fresh air and thank God that we are still here today to give glory to him.

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P. S. Two days from today I will be guest blogging again from Ms. Callie Susanna’s Blog https://calliesusanna.com ,Shalom🕊🌸

The Brook🌾🌾💦💦

God bless,

It has been a couple of days since I posted on my blog. Since those days a lot of good and bad things have happened; maybe these days are helping me and my family be stronger and rely on God more.

On Friday night we had night watch service at our church and God spoke through my preaching and the preaching of another sister. How many of us are so arrogant that we forget that from dust we were created and to dust we will go back. Something that resonated deep within me as a few years back I was that type of person. God has molded my character a lot since then but I still need to be molded more. Arrogant people are so hypocritical of every single thing but they never see theirs own flaws. One example that we can find is Jonah; when God decide after all not to destroy Nineveh after they repented. He was filled with anger because God changed his mind  but he was not able to see his own shortcomings. But that is not what I will be speaking about this night; How can we defeat giants?

Last blog post I wrote about Jael the wife of Heber the kenite. How God used her to bring the rupture in King Jabins ruling. One thing that I can attest to with certainty is that when we preach our words compromise us. We are tested to see if what we preach we are able to live it. I told you guys that God was and still is doing wonderful things in our lives; my parents were blessed with the opportunity of buying their own home. It’s something that has been asked for; for a long time. Our faith has been tested to see in different aspects and the biggest hit that we receive was this Saturday.

The owner of the house where we have lived for 9 years; has suddenly decided to kick us out giving us a notice of only a month. Did we expect it? The answer is no we did not; however we know that God is control. He opened doors that were locked for my parents; and he allowed this to happen to test our faith in him. The Bible is pretty clear in the saying that not only from bread will man live. We christian need to rely foremost in God; everything that has happened in this couple of weeks it’s according to the will of God. My pastor in today’s preaching spoke in 1. Kings 17; where Elijah declared the word of drought for Israel given by God.

“Get away from here and turn eastward, and hide by the Brook Cherith, which flows into the Jordan. And it will be that you shall drink from the brook, and I have commanded the ravens to feed you there.””
‭‭I Kings‬ ‭17:3-4‬ 

The word says that he was fed by ravens during day and night until the brook dried up and later on; he was sent to the widow that only had a little bit of flour and a little of oil. The situation or trials needs to get worse before getting better. There has to be pain, hopelessness and fear before the blessing is able to come. Right at this moment we are in the unknown; I do not know where to start but the first thing that I did was  ; I gave this unto the Lord. He will guide every step of the way just as he guided Elijah. My only resources at this moment are my knees, my mouth and the word. The word will sustain me and nurture my faith, my mouth will give praises for God’s blessings that are on the way and my knees will seek his voice for guidance in for every step of this situation.

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P.S. On Tuesday I will be posting the third post in the series” Called with a purpose” don’t forget to stay tuned 🗣🗣🗣🗣and remember that in the midst of everything God is there🕊 After all his is Jehovah Jireh and Jehovah Nissi⚔️🗡➕

 

The Unseen🌒

God bless everyone; tonight I will speaking about a woman that the Bible does not give much background on; however she was shown as a victorious woman. This is during the years that Israel was under the rule of Jabin King of the Canaanites after God sold the nation of Israel because they had been doing wickedness in his sight.

 And she said, ” I will surely go with you. Nevertheless the road on which you are going will not lead to your glory, for the Lord will sell Sisera into the hand of a woman” Jud 4:9

God had commanded Barak to lead an army of 10,000 soldier to fight Sisera who was the commander of Jabin king of Canaan. Maybe it was fear or self-doubt that made this man delayed in doing then order that God had commanded for him; that gave the opportunity not only for Deborah but also an unknown woman named Jael to come out as woman of valor and victory. God had called Barak but in his lapsed in making the decision; the glory of the victory for the battle would be bestowed upon a woman.

“Then Jael, Heber’s wife, took a tent peg and took a hammer in her hand, and went softly to him and drove the peg into his temple, and it went down into the ground; for he was fast asleep and weary. So he died.”
‭‭Jud‬ ‭4:21

One thing that I want you to get from this post tonight is that God calls but when we disobey his command or call it’s not a good thing. Many times the calls that God makes to us it’s to glorify himself through us. Barak in a moment of self-doubt let the honor of being know as the person who defeated Sisera be given to someone else. You have to grab the opportunity when it presents itself. As I have testified before; there have been moments when I have felt like quitting because of the responsibility that comes with being a leader. However God has always in one way or another spoken to me to not let cowardice take from me what he wants me to have. Jael was a woman who saw an opportunity and she took it; she fooled the enemy with kindness and made him feel comfortable and safe; before she obeyed God’s command.

Grab with both hands the opportunity that God presents to you. This series we are talking about being called with a purpose but at the end of all; we are the ones responsible in doing what is necessary. Jael’s actions made her be known in the Bible as a victorious woman; that did not let fear nor self-doubt stop her from doing what needed to be done. That action gave Israel  the boost they needed through God’s help to destroy and defeat King Jabin and his rule.

You unravel me, with a melody
You surround me with a song
Of deliverance, from my enemies
Till all my fears are gone

Fear of the unknown or unseen stops our calling; it’s time to break free from those chains that keep us prisoners in our own self-doubt and insecurity. Rise up to the occasion as Jael and be known as a woman or man who is victorious in God’s eyes. The enemy rules over what we give him liberty to; stop that and rise up to the unseen and the call that God has put in your life.

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P.s. Thank you from the deep bottom of my heart for being in this joyful ride with me in the unseen and unpredictable. Yesterday I received the notice that my blog has 108 followers; when I started this blog was because had put in my heart to do it and I let fear, doubt and insecurity stop my growth for a year. I have decided to put my trust in God that he will provide a way not just for me blog but for me personally in every aspect of my life. Thank you so much; I really appreciate it🤗💕💕Shalom🕊🕊

Reconcile🕊🕊➕➕

Missing one brother😞 Left( father, mother,youngest, oldest,myself, sister in law, and third oldest)

Happy & Bless Thursday !!! This week actually this whole year of 2018 I seen God’s hand move in my life and family. And what a tremendous pleasure it gives me to glorify and exalt the name of God because he is good. I can attest to that; I have seen his hand move to restore, lift and bless my life and my family.

My first blog post of the  series named ” Called with a Purpose” has been published on the blog ; go check it out Blessing within a Curse. I will not be speaking about that; it’s with immense joy and gratitude that I’m going to tell you what happened on sunday. Maybe some of you will not believe me or might think that I’m making up stories but with certainty and with my heart in my hands I tell you the blessing that our household received this last sunday.

Some of you know as I have spoken— well written in the blog that my mother and I and  the brethren in christ have been praying for my father and brothers for them to come to God’s path back again. As I posted in the blog post I’m a Warrior  , my father had started to rise up in the ministry after being in the backseat for many years. It’s with immense joy that I say that he took the step to reconcile with God on sunday and not only him but my youngest brother and the oldest( the firstborn) who arrived unexpectedly that day to our church from Texas. I could not have imagined nor predicted God’s perfect timing; truthfully I can say that God has been beyond good to me. A word that my pastor brought and spoke to our church was that we needed to start declaring that dried bones needed to come back to life; we needed to start prophesying over our family members; we needed to start declaring that their spiritual lives needed to be resurrected but having faith that it will happen.

I can almost see the comments rolling in; saying that we should not believe that nonsense as it’s not written in the bible anything about that. But your relationship with God cannot be compared to someone else’s. God has given us the authority to cast out demons, to prophesy that the land where we at will be ours; why then is it so difficult to prophesy over the lives of our family members?. I’m a pentecostal gal and will always be and I truly believe that God moves in mysterious and innumerable ways you and I cannot imagine. One verse that summons everything up to me is in Isaiah 55: 8-9;

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts

As I write this I know this is the first step and that their walk is not going to be easy. Since my father started to rise up in the ministry again; he has been attacked him in different ways. His finger almost got cut off at work; he did not work for almost a week because he needed stitches which meant not much pay for rent. A concrete fell on his knee on the week he had to sing( yes he sings) for the men’s service; this upcoming friday he has to preach and I know the enemy will have something in wait to discourage him from continue to pursue his ministry but I believe that he is covered with the blood of Jesus and no principality nor any spirit that tries to touch him will be able to. As I always say God has call each one of us with a purpose; it depends on us if we let the enemy have control of our lives. We cannot let fear overpower us because fear is not from God; instead we need to pick the armor that God has provided for us and continue moving forward.

I encourage the person who is reading this blog post and you have years of praying for that person that does not want or does not know of God; to never cease praying and declaring them for Christ. There are mysteries in our walk with God; don’t be like everyone else instead learn to listen and discern what is from God and what is not. Ask God and he will let you know. All I know is because God has revealed through his word or through elders. They are more battle ready then the new generation; seek counsel when you feel like quitting because there will be moments when you don’t even want to open your bible nor will you want to bow down and pray. But it’s in that moment that you need to be in your knees seeking God and declaring salvation over that person’s life.

P. S. On saturday I will be posting the second blog post on the “Called with a Purpose” series. Do go check out👉🏻👉🏻👉🏻👉🏻 Callie Susanna blog; I’m guest posting tonight there. Would love to hear from you, let’s chat in the comments. Also thanks a million times for the new followers that have decide to get on board this crazy ship to who knows where; I appreciate you💕💕💕— let’s say a hello down here👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻 Shalom 🕊

Not Going Back| Guest Blogger

In Sunday school the other weekend, my class and I were talking about the advances in technology over the past 100 years: about how people used to ride in horses and buggies, than cars and airplanes and space shuttles.

We talked about how dangerous it would be now if someone decided to ride a horse and buggy on a major highway, or used an old-model airplane to fly passengers, or tried to get to space in old technology.  We have advanced beyond that; we’ve learned and we’ve grown.  Every now and then we may indulge the whim to ride in a horse and carriage, or even a hot-air balloon, but ultimately, they are not safe or effective means of transportation in the long run.

I immediately saw a spiritual parallel.

In my faith, I’ve grown.  I gave my heart to Jesus at five years old, and I’ve learned much more about Him and have grown physically, mentally, and spiritually in the time since then.  I’ve stepped up to lead and mentor those around me.  I’ve been faithful on this blog and in seeking God in my moment-to-moment life.

I can’t go back.  Sure, every now and then I “indulge” the whim to worry or stress or negative self-talk, but ultimately, it’s dangerous in my journey to Christ.  It can cause me to have an accident, as well as endanger those on this road around me.

I don’t say this from a place of feeling stuck, but a place of rejoicing over the progress, the advancements, in my faith.  I don’t want to go back!

Imagine if the Israelites tried to cross back over the Red Sea, or if Queen Esther didn’t talk to her husband, or if Ruth stayed behind and let Naomi go on her own! History would be drastically different; a whole people group would be gone.

What part of our legacy could be erased if we turned back now?

xo,

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