Who are you? Who am I?

As I was reading the book of Genesis the night before that, I came across the chapter where Jacob is fleeing from his father in law Laban. However, it wasn’t until the next morning when I was on my twitter about to post something that a tweet from Beth Moore caught my attention.

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Like I said I had read the night before that chapter from Genesis, however, in my search of the covenants that God made with various characters throughout the Bible, I did not pay attention to the word and God was speaking to me through it. A lot of times we are mistreated, judged, belittle, put to the side in our own churches or family; maybe because your opinions are not the same as everyone else. People of higher standing, closest to you or even pastors nowadays; want sheep, friends or family members that don’t ask questions but that instead, they will follow blindly or jump when they say jump. Knowledge and wisdom are powerful but not the type of power where you control people but where no one will be able to fool you and lead you in a different direction then what God intended.

At this moment in life, as I was speaking to my mother and I was telling her, that I’m feeling stuck. I have not seen growth within me in a couple of months and that is not what I want for my relationship with God. I want to be covered from head to toe with his presence, it’s my deepest desire to be used by him. I have let circumstances and people affect my way of having a deeper relationship with God. I’m craving something more from God. I want my relationship with God to become deeper than before.

Genesis 31:12

And he said, ‘Lift up your eyes and see, all the goats that mate with the flock are striped, spotted, and mottled, for I have seen all that Laban is doing to you.

Jacob was a thief and a liar, and, God still remembered him. He was being treated unfairly by his father in law and God was seeing the injustice in what Laban was doing, he multiplied the injustice into a blessing as Jacob left with more than half of Laban riches. You and I might have been a robbers, murderers, adulterers, prostitutes, hypocrites, terrorists, sinners of much more but when we came to the path of God and we repented with a sincere repentance all injustice that might be thrown or has been thrown at us because of our past; or different point of views God will turn it into blessing in a blink of an eye. We are not our past but instead, God sees who we can be in him.

Exhort 🤔or Love💕?

Hi,on today’s blog, I will be speaking about something that I have been struggling with within me and in my ministry. This topic has been in my mind to blog about for a long time but I just never felt that it was time yet and yesterday while I was watching a Christian blogger; God was speaking to my life.

John 13:35

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.35 By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another

In the book of John, Jesus left us this commandment to love one another as he has loved us. But if we ask ourselves this question, do we really love one another? I’m asking myself and wondering if I really love my brethren, family, and friends or it’s just a fleeting feeling of attachment. To love like Jesus loves we need to show compassion, mercy, kindness, trust but most of all have a deep love for God.  However, Christians or believers(myself included) we have a bad habit of thinking that exhorting or saying what we think is right that’s how you show love. Unfortunately,  we have a rep as critics and hypocrites; and that’s not because of God but because in our human thinking we impose our views and rules in each other.

Jesus never imposed rules upon us but he said, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.” He gave us the option to follow him and he gave us salvation by his sacrifice; through this, he has saved millions upon millions of lives. Now let’s ask ourselves this question, how many lives have we brought to Jesus.? One thing is to exhort in love and another is to impose your views. To exhort in love, you have to show mercy, kindness but most of all love to the person you will be exhorting. The book of Matthews deals with the exhortation topic by saying this,

15. If your brother or sister sins,go and point out their fault, just between the two of you. If they listen to you, you have won them over.16 But if they will not listen, take one or two others along, so that ‘every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.’ 17 If they still refuse to listen, tell it to the church; and if they refuse to listen even to the church, treat them as you would a pagan or a tax collector

I’m learning to keep quiet and pray before going to someone and exhort or give advice to. Why? well not everyone will be comfortable with the idea of someone else coming up to you and telling you what you are doing wrong. I know I’m the first one that will have a dumbstruck face and be thinking ” did she/he really said that to me” why? because as humans we have faults and sometimes one of those faults is pride. To speak with love I got to be filled with God’s love myself. If I’m going to exhort someone I got to show fruits myself first. The word says that by their fruits you should know them.

1 Thessalonians 5:14

We urge you, brethren, admonish the unruly, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with everyone.

One thing is to be tactful in the way you exhort and another is covering someone’s sin, there is a difference. I have made changes in my life this year that have brought a different view from last year. However, I was not showing the fruits of God’s love on my friends or family member’s or ministry-wise. I thought I knew better, however, God confronted me because I was seeing a decrease in many areas instead of an increase in his presence. Maybe; many of the things that were wrong could have been changed if I had just opened up my eyes to what God wanted to show me. God is a God of love, and every word that comes of my mouth or yours represents him. Maybe it’s the time to let God guide instead of thinking we know best. I don’t know about you but I will try my best. Shalom🌸🕊💕

Conference Recap😱😱😱

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Hey Y’all, as promised in today’s blog I will be recapping what the girls spoke and a little bit of the lesson that the pastors brought about the differences between obsessions and real love. Some of the topics that were discussed during this conference were abstinence, love, obsession, sexual abuse and much more.

The lesson was based on the story of Tamar and Amnon in the book of 2. Samuel 13. Her story is pretty sad in the sense that her own brother committed the crime of abusing her and not restoring her honor by asking marrying her as was supposed to be done in those times. Amnon’s obsession led him to commit an evil crime that destroyed not only his life but the life of Tamar. How can we differentiate what’s obsession and what’s love?

In 1 of Corinthians 13:4-8, the word gives us the definition of real love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

As youth and adults, we are tested in different areas of our lives. When someone falls in love it’s a moment of overwhelming feelings. You are happy to be in the company of your beloved, to speak about everything and nothing at all. You want to get to know that person, the butterflies feelings start to be felt in your stomach when you think, see, or spend time together with that person. To be in love is to want to protect, honor, persevere, be patient, kind, humble towards the person that you are in love with. Of course, not everything is a color of rainbows; there will be moments when circumstances will make you do mistakes but overall love never fails to conquer the unconquerable. Amnon’s actions don’t speak much of love of but instead of an attraction that became an obsession towards his half-sister; verse 15 of chapter 13 gives us an insight of his feelings.

Then Amnon hated her with intense hatred. In fact, he hated her more than he had loved her. Amnon said to her, “Get up and get out!”

His reaction and action give testimony of his feelings towards his sister. His so-called “Love” became hatred after having committed the act. We have to learn to differentiate between love and obsession. Sometimes the first step towards a relationship starts with attraction, it could either develop to real love or could become something worse as an obsession. It’s almost as bad as the fans of famous artists that proclaim their love for their stars but a lot of times their actions contradict them; in the end, it became an obsession.

At the conference, we spoke about abstinence in saving ourselves for marriage also about purity. Being pure is not only from abstaining from sex outside of marriage but also your thoughts and emotions. Remember that from the “heart speaks the mouth. ” We might be abstaining from sinning with our body but we are sinning in our hearts and mind. We also spoke a little bit of sexual abuse and it’s side effects to the victims. I spoke of my testimony and how being a victim, completely changed my attitude but also almost took me to a path of change in sexual orientation. By God’s mercy, I am the Ana of today without any type of emotional crisis. When we let God work in our lives and let him actually guide us as he wants we will see the change within us and around us. Influences affected me a lot, however, God never let go of me in my moments of doubt, fear, rebellion, and depression.

What can I say, I had much fun at this conference and cannot wait for the male and female conference that will be held in a few months. Learning to wait in God and his promises, not to rush and actually letting him prepare us for the day that we will be wife or husband to the person he has for us.

P. S. God Bless, hope that everyone has a beautiful weekend. I will be writing the blog post of Called with a purpose this weekend, however, it will not be posted until later in the week as I want to go a little deeper in his story but also it will be my mother’s 50th birthday and we are celebrating it with confetti and food🤪😂😂, just kidding. But we will definitely celebrate it so I want to give her all my attention this weekend.

Rebuild Your Walls➕➕

img_0189God bless all of you on this beautiful day; as promised on the last blog post in today’s Called with a Purpose post I will be speaking in the book of Nehemiah;  about Nehemiah and his call to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem after they had been destroyed by the Babylonians. As a lot of you probably know he was the cupbearer to the King of Persia Artaxerxes son of Xerxes husband of Esther.

In the first chapter of the book of Nehemiah, it says that after he asked and heard the news about Jerusalem and the people who were sent to exile; he wept and prayed and fasted to the Lord. From verse 5 to 7 you can read and see how his prayer was to God but what calls my attention is verse 6 to 7;

let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of Israel. I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you.We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.

What calls my attention is on the second line of verse 6; where he tells the Lord, ” I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you.” Why was Nehemiah admitting to those sins is the question I ask myself? One thing I have learned in spiritual warfare is that the sins and bondage of past ancestors are still present in our lives and if they are not broken it still has the power to keep us in chains.  One sentence that I use in my prayer is; ” Father at this hour in the name of Jesus Christ and with the authority given to me; I asked that any chain or bondage that is dragging from past generations be broken in Jesus name. ” Another thing that I ask myself is; why was he asking God to turn his ear towards his prayer and to keep his eyes open?. As we know God is a God of mercy and has always been; however the people of Israel always broke the covenant that God had made with them and they didn’t listen when he sent word of repentance through the prophets

Nehemiah was not only praying for the rebuilding of physical walls but also for the spiritual ones. The walls of the nation of Israel were destroyed because of their disobedience through the idolatry of other pagan gods; they didn’t have the ear of the Father anymore. Their relationship with God had crumbled and they needed to build those walls of prayer and communication with God also before the rebuilding of the physical walls. Remember after all; this nation has always been his chosen nation.

He has always responded to their cries and prayers when they actually come to him with a heartfelt repentance. He has always provided for them in times of need and desperation. Nehemiah brings  to mind the command that he gave to Moses to give to the children of Israel in verse 8 and 9 saying;

‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’

However in verse ten; Nehemiah says “they are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand”Almost as if asking God to have pity on them as Nehemiah would go before the King and he wanted the King to show favor and let him go to rebuild the walls with his permission but foremost God’s. Later in chapter 2 of Nehemiah, it seems as God heard his petition because the King saw in his expression when Nehemiah took to him his cup that his expression was of sadness but not of illness instead of heartbreak. And God put favor in the sight of the King for Nehemiah as the King granted Nehemiah the request to rebuild the walls of Jerusalem.

Rebuilding the walls did not only take Nehemiah to do it but everyone else; if you read the whole book of Nehemiah you will see that he involved the priests, families and even conflict and opposition were involved in the rebuilding of those walls. The priests were the first to volunteer to rebuild the walls; families got involved and rebuilt sections of the walls as a sign of ownership. How are we rebuilding the spiritual walls of our nation, community, family, and church? Are we involved or are we just seeing from the outside the work that other people are doing? Opposition and conflict rose up in the time of rebuilding; however, did that stop, Nehemiah, from completing the purpose of his call?

Actually, all the opposition and conflict instead made him stay more in the purpose that God had put in him. We have to learn to overcome the conflict’s and circumstances, the injustice that may appear in our way. At the end of all Nehemiah rebuilt the walls and purified the people of Israel just as God wanted, and all that he desired was for God so remember him in favor for all that he had done and for obeying his call and fulfilling it. Let’s scrutinize ourselves and see if we are obeying the call that God has put in our hearts and how are we rebuilding the walls of our community and country but foremost it should be our family; how are you rebuilding the walls of those who have theirs destroyed?

P.S. I hope that this post brings blessing to your life. Let me know your thoughts in the comment section at the bottom; would love to hear from you. Show kindness and love to someone from the time of right now in one aspect of their lives. Shalom🕊

Inspiration Song🕊🕊🕊🕊

God bless and Happy Weekend!!!! I have felt the need to share with you guys a worship song that I hope that the lyrics bring that peace and presence of God. I was reminded of this song through Psalms 91: 4;

“He shall cover you with His feathers, And under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler.”
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Wings of Dove by Billy Bunster

As the rain spills

From the mountain to the sea

I have poured my life today

Looking for you anxiously

He who loves my soul

Chorus

On wings of pigeon

On wings of cherubs

Go and tell him that I love him

I’m dying

I despair

On wings of pigeon

On Cherub wings

Go and tell him that I love him

That I’m dying

I despair

I want to get your attention

And that you look at me with passion

I have to run to your arms

And take refuge in your lap

Receive my song today

Chorus

On wings of pigeon

On Cherub wings

Go and tell him that I love him

That I for you

For you I die

For you I despair

On wings of pigeon

On Cherub wings

Go and tell him that I love him

That I’m dying

I despair

That I’m dying

I despair

On pigeon wings

On wings of cherubs

Go and tell him that I love him

That I’m dying

And I despair

Hallelujah hallelujah,

Hallelujah hallelujah.

P.S. I want and need this desperation for God daily in my walk with him. I don’t want to feel okay in being comfortable if I can’t feel his presence. I want the opposite of that I need and desire his presence more and deeply.

Dating in Modern Days👫👫💑

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Hello everyone this blog post will be a one or two-part blog series it will depend if I cover all the areas of Godly Dating in this modern days. Now I want to let everyone know this post is not written by an experienced dater or married one ; but I have had experiences that I will go into detail later on; so please when you start reading this post go with an open mind.

Dating in modern days have become physical and emotional thing. Adults and teenagers have focused their eyes, heart and mind to relationships and people who bring no fulfillment to their lives. A couple of blog post back I wrote about the Samaritan woman at the well; how Jesus asked for a drink from her and she received a greater blessing after her encounter with the Lord.

One big thing that you have to do before you start dating is look at your relationship with God. Ask yourselves this question; Am I in a place where I can start a relationship that will lead to marriage? Is my heart ready for this next step? Dating is not to be taken lightly; as christian we do not have nor should we want the option of;  I’m going to taste the goods and if I  don’t like it I will leave it. That is not how it works, in the old testament well actually in Genesis 2:18 the Lord said ;

“It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”

Many mistakes that we make when we start dating is that; we do not go with the expectation of finding that helpmate; we start dating because we are pressured by society, family, and even the church. When God created the helpmate for Adam; he did not decide if she is not good for him he will make him another. Adam and Eve they stayed together until one of them died, through being cast out from Eden, Cain murdering his brother Abel and more.

Proverbs 18:22

He who finds a wife finds what is good
    and receives favor from the Lord.

Dating is not bad; however it has become carnal in the world and inside the church. Who does not miss the days when you were courting someone you were not allowed to hold hands, nor kiss or anything improper that could make you sin; those were the good old days. Dating is not learning each others dreams, learning about each other and just enjoying being young without going to the limit of sinning against God and your body and mind too anymore. Sexual relationship have taken the center of relationship; one thing that I see in youth and adults nowadays they are all over each other; there is a saying ” they knead as if they were bakers.” Which is funny for me and at the same time true; the story of Isaac and Rebecca is pretty astonishing because this woman didn’t let her fiance or betrothed see her without her veil.

and asked the servant, “Who is that man in the field coming to meet us?”

“He is my master,” the servant answered. So she took her veil and covered herself.

Fleeing from sexual immorality in a relationship or even in your own personal life it’s hard for the person when it’s all you ever known and you are trying to do it with your own strength and will. In the first book of Corinthians the Apostle Paul tells the church of Corinthians flee from sexual immorality as you are not just sinning against your body but also the Holy Spirit as our bodies are his temple. When a relationship is just sexual the two people involved are transmitting each other spiritual diseases(demons). Having sexual relations would be more than okay if it’s within the covenant of marriage; as it is proclaimed in the book of Genesis;

God blessed them: “Prosper! Reproduce! Fill Earth! Take charge! Be responsible for fish in the sea and birds in the air, for every living thing that moves on the face of Earth.”

This he told Adam and Eve. Marriage is a covenant between two people who become one and God( Genesis 2:24). He created you to reproduce and find fulfillment inside the marriage. People have sinned in that area since forever and will continue to if they don’t decide to leave that behind and be a new creature in Christ.

P.S. I will this blog post until here, I will be posting part 2 later in the week. Married and single people do comment down below 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻and let me know your thoughts and suggestion; I would love some feedback💕.I appreciate the love and support from every single one of you. Shalom🌸🌸🌸

Inner Healing🗣🗣💜💜💗

Matthews 11:30

“for my yoke is easy and my burden is light”

Happy Monday everyone!!!!!

I’m immensely sorry for not posting last week that much; I had posted in the last blog post that I would post only three days last week; however circumstances happened. On Saturday I decided to head to the beach to relax from everything, work, church, and home. I was able to enjoy the fresh air and the water as also the scenery of the sea and the ride was fun. IMG_1324

In that moment I was plain Ana; just one with God and nature. Seeing God’s hand in the beauty that is in our world. What can I say it was a much-needed rest.. from thinking of the stuff at home, at church, and at work. I’m the type of person that never rests; I’m not much of an outgoing person I have always been someone who is comfortable staying at home and reading and blogging or just singing around; but this last week I had felt all the stress of a couple of weeks from work, home and church. There is a moment when you just have to be and rest and heal at your own time.IMG_1326

A bible verse that always calls my attention is in Ecclesiastes 3:4; because as someone once said time is the essence of our being( I don’t remember who said it though) anyways this verse always calls me to attention because I’m so involved most of the time in other people’s   lives and situation trying to help them and give support that I forget myself in the process and a lot of times I end up burnt out from everything; emotionally, mentally and physically.

“A time to weep and a time to laugh,

A time to moun and a time to dance.”

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Having a ministry it’s really hard and I really do congratulate Jesus first of all that his ministry lasted for 3 straight running years; the disciples for spreading his word, our pastors, evangelists, missionary’s and our brethren for walking daily with God and still having the strength and faith to continue walking with him. This will be my second year as a youth leader and I feel burnt out.. it so hard dealing with so many different personalities and characters; it’s almost frustrating at times. But I always remember that it’s God who gives the strength in everything we do.

Numbers 11:14

” I cannot carry all these people by myself; the burden is too heavy for me”

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My stay at the beach was for just a few hours as  it was pretty close to home so I decided to head back home. However it was a good experience first of all for myself and with my family. Another thing that I learned is to love yourself first; it you are burnt out take time to recuperate from everything and you will see the greater blessing that you will be to someone else… How can you give if you don’t receive yourself the healing from God if you are constantly worrying about the ministry.I missed you guys.. leave a comment below 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻and let me know what everyone was up to this weekend…Shalom💕💗