This year has been a year of blessing but also a year full of spiritual warfare; not only spiritually but also in almost every aspect of my life. God in his mercy has been faithful towards me; however, instead of this providing me with the strength it has done the opposite because I have forgotten his promise. As this week went by, God put in my heart the story of Moses and his process after fleeing from Egypt. In the book of Exodus, we see Moses who has everything by being the adopted son of the daughter of Pharaoh but a lapsed of judgment in his part has destroyed his future in a blink of an eye.
I don’t know if the person(you) that is reading this post at this moment is going through a spiritual desert, for whatever reason it may be. Maybe, it’s something that you have to go through for your ministry, call or life to evolve from where it’s at. In Exodus chapters 2 and 3, we read about Moses fleeing for his very own life and living a life of survival and comfort; getting married and having his own family in a land where he is a foreigner not expecting the calling that God would appoint him too. The distance from Egypt to Midian would have been long plus the weather conditions would have been rough as well.
However, the Bible does not go into specifics but even for me walking a file mile distance during summer is rough 😩I cannot comprehend nor imagine the desperation and need that Moses was going through at that moment. His survival was needed because his call would later be revealed in a special way towards him.
12 And God said, “I will be with you. And this will be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God on this mountain.”
He would have suffered from high temperatures, being hungry and thirsty; so him dwelling with Jethro’s family would seem like comfort in that time he was going through. Now, here is where we go deeper in the spiritual sense. Many of us are going through and have gone through difficult times of need and of survival not just spiritually but also for your own life. However, after we have gone through this rough time and have overcome those obstacles that have appeared by God’s mercy; we have gotten comfortable in our way of living. To my life these couple of months a spiritual decline has descended upon me due to the commodity that I allowed my life to fall into as well that trial I did not expect and was not prepare for. This brought upon me a lack of searching for God’s presence, negativity as well as my faith diminished a lot. I was seeing all that I was going through in that most difficult time and I was not seeing God’s hand upon me.
It’s so hard wanting to overcome thoughts, feelings of negative nature when the spiritual side in your life has suffered a blow. When you are not searching for God because doubt has come through an open door in your life and sadness and fear have become the blanket that you surround yourself with. At that moment survival becomes your priority and that was what happened in my life; I prioritize survival over everything else; because I knew that if I did not close myself in and allow time for healing and comfort I would not be here at this moment. A lot of times survival is needed before the calling is declared upon your life. Moses during his time of survival and comfort learned abilities that would, later on, help him in his new role as the leader of the Israelites.
You most likely are going through a rough desert where you might be hungry, thirsty for the word of God and his presence. You are most likely thinking, believing or even saying; Lord, where are you? I’m not feeling your presence, Holy Spirit. But, I want to tell you to use this moment to declutter your heart and mind from things that are taking your mind and eyes from God. Learn to let go and forgive, learn to prioritize because what you are learning at this moment will help you when you’re called to work in whichever area has for you.
P.S. Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving with your family and loved ones. Shalom🕊🕊