Redeemed through Love & Grace🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🗣🗣💕💕👏🏻💜💜

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I don’t know how to start this blog. It shames me in the deepest part of my heart to talk about this but I can’t let this moment pass and not talk about something that has affected my spiritual life since I was in my teens. What can I say sometimes we get ourselves in a pickle or the enemy uses anyone or anything to bring you down from where you at.

Seems like all I can see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight that’s already been won”

Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave

 

My life has always been entwined with the church I was raised there and I can’t find myself nowhere else. My love for God can’t be taken from me, I love worshiping him, praying to him and spreading his word through actions, words or testimony. Since I was a child the Lord had spoken that he had separated me since in my mother’s womb. He called me as a prophet and youth leader since an early age; however insecurity and friendships in youth took me through a path that I should have never known or had gone through. What I’m going to talk about it’s a sequence of things that happened for one single reason.

 

I was Raped.

 

Many people use this phrase  for popularity or for compassion; I use this phrase because it happened to me and I want to let anyone know that there is a God that redeems and Loves with undying grace. I was about 7 or 8 when a family member came to visit our grandmother; during one of the times she wasn’t home and my brothers where at a neighbor’s house playing soccer; he raped me. I  never in my life have I felt such shame and hatred towards someone. I never told no one; not even my grandmother who was my guardian during that time. I was brought to the United States as a young child I was about 9 almost 10 . During the first three years of my move here; everything was good I felt safe; but I still had the trauma and nightmares. I wasn’t able to let anyone hold me down because I would react in a murderous rage. I started touching myself at night as a way to prove to myself that I was still pure that he hadn’t taken one of the most important thing. It was a battle that I would continue for years.

 

Enter high school years; by the 3rd year I was deep in depression. A friend of mine got me hooked to the erotica genre. But by then I had already seen and done things better left to not have done or seen at all. I had watched porn, I had masturbated and all of this things happened for feeling like I wasn’t worthy after what happened in my childhood. My nightmares had receded; I was going to church and was active but I was lying to myself. I masturbated at night because it brought me pleasure and a feeling or being secure and powerful of my own body. But at the end I felt shame for having done that. We know what the bible says about sexual immorality;

 

1. Corinthians 6:18

18.”Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body”

 

 

There were moments that I felt as the liar in the world. Sometimes the holy spirit would touch me and I would start speaking in tongues and stuff but I felt as if i was doing the greatest sin because I still was going through this purpose and it has been put in our heads that we need to be perfect; so I started to subject the holy spirit. I would not give him the freedom to move in my life; and that was the worst thing I could have done because at the end I was crippling my healing.

 

1.Corinthians 6:19-20

19.”Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;20.you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”

 

 

But at the end the God I served event though I betrayed him daily and rejected his sacrifice would not leave me alone. There were moments in my life that I would scream and cry out because this thing that started as innocent in some people standards became an addiction that would not let me go. It had sunk its claws in me and there were moments when I thought I was never going to be free. I’m not going to lie and say that there have not been moment that I haven’t lapsed but most of the times it has been because I have gotten comfortable. I’m not praying as I should be, or not fasting and even reading my bible. There are moments when I’m my lowest that I want to give up and God is there beside me saying; ” Don’t give up my daughter, you are almost to the finish line.” yes life is not easy and this path is not also and maybe we feel like we are alone in this race or battle and we focused on how big the problems is that we forget that we have someone much bigger and powerful at our side.

 

 

Exodus 15:13

“In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed. In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.”

 

 

Don’t let the enemy win; he wants to the destroy God beautiful creation which you and I are. See what is happening in the world; the world is full of violence, sex, sexual immorality, addictions and the prince of this world will continue to fill this earth to the last speck of dirt with abominations to the Lord. This earth was beautiful, humanity was beautiful but during the course of it our decisions have let us through a path that was never meant to be walked on. Now through his grace we are redeemed and given salvation. I hope this post helped you know me a little bit better and if you are going through a similar situation I pray that you find the words, comfort and courage here. God bless.

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P.S. I have decided to change the name of the Blog. It’s going to be called”Reedemed” let me know in the comment section what you think. Shalom.

Humanity Vs God..

Why is there so much violence in this world?🌎

Why is there so much violence in this world???

Is it because we think that we are superior from one another? Is it our hatred towards other nationalities? Or is it the religious side of it?

What has given and who has given us the right to kill innocent people just for our own beliefs, wants and desires. Who are we to take a life without mercy and compassion. What has become of this humanity that instead of spreading love towards one another; we instead incite fear and hatred in the hearts of other people.

I truly believe that we have lost the mercy and compassion but most of all the love for human beings. There is so much violence in this world that sometimes I just get sick of watching news after news about a shooting, bombing and homicide. This world is becoming more darker as the days become shorter. I don’t know if you can’t feel this huge oppression in the air. Some might call me crazy but there is no peace at night. No one can go anywhere without being armed or no one can sleep at their own home without an alarm system.

 

1 Thessalonians 5:2

“For you yourselves know full well that the day of the Lord will come just like a thief in the night”

 

What are we doing?

To stop this spread of violence, I believe that we need to really turn back to God.  The world has done whatever it wanted. When I talk about the world I’m not talking about earth itself but us the humans that live in this planet. We have turn our back to God, because he is not a huge thing. He does not give you the riches of the world, he does not give you fame, he does not give you constant sexual relationships or normal ones. All our reasons for having giving our back to God is going to come back.

2  Timothy 3:2

For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous,boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents,unthankful, unholy,

We humans need structure; you might think you know everything or that there is no higher power out there that watches your every move and every thought. But at the end of all of this destruction will come for humanity. We have been rebellious toward someone that gave his only  son to die and be torture in a cross for our sins. That someone that as a father loved his child but he knew that if that sacrifice was not made we would never have the opportunity to be face to face with him. He chose to give salvation and redemption to a humanity that constantly sins and has always being ungrateful and has stomped on that blood and sacrifice. And he continues to be merciful towards this humanity  but a moment will come that his wrath will descend upon us for our sins and transgression.

John 317

“For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.”

It’s time for us to go back toward that God that is merciful, compassionate, loving but also wrathful. It’s time to live under his commandments not our flesh desires and wants. What are you humanity doing to this beautiful planet and the lives that were created here.? It’s so tragic that nowadays we live in fear because we don’t know the intentions of our neighbors or friends. I ask anyone that reads this post to pray for your neighbors, community and even state; its time to rise up this country in prayer. Love one another as if you are blood related and show kindness and compassion but most of all Love to the needy.

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P.S. Lets keep praying for violence to decrease in this world. May God bless you all, Shalom.

His kingdom, His Glory🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼💜💜💕💕

Right this moment I’m asking to myself this question…

What do I want from this life?

I know I want to go to college which at this moment is impossible for me, but I believe that God has control over everything. My deepest desire since childhood has been to be a singer and now as I have gotten older; quite a few more things have been added to that list. For example I love writing I can see myself as an author but I also see myself preaching and worshiping taking his word out to the nations.

Philippians 4:19 

“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus”

However from where I’m standing it looks it will never be possible for those dreams to come through. I’m getting older and I know some will say that God can use you not mattering your age. And I believe that’s true because if we go to the New Testament we for example have Jesus he started his ministry at the age of 30 and it was a three-year ministry that impacted the world and is still impacting it today. So my question is;

What do I want from God?

See how I change the question because at the end is not what we want but what the Lord has ordained for us. Some people are given the opportunity to continue to pursue their dreams; while others are taken through a more difficult road. Some people got to leave behind their family and dreams to preach the word of the Lord. This brings me back the story about the rich young ruler and Jesus. Do you guys remember it? This young ruler was seeing the miracles that Jesus was doing and he wanted to be part of it; however he couldn’t let go of what he had to follow Jesus.

Matthew 19:21-22

Jesus said to him, “If you wish to be complete, go and sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.”22 But when the young man heard this statement, he went away grieving; for he was one who owned much property.

It’s so difficult to do God’s will; it’s a daily struggle because the world has thought us that if we don’t have a pedigree, fame, money or influence we are nothing. We are like the flies that nobody wants. But I got good news for you; because at the we are important to God. God still wants us without all of that; he is not looking for the outside but he sees whats on the inside.

Matthew 6:31-32

Therefore do not be anxious, saying,

‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’

For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.”

I might not have what the world thinks is necessary to survive but I have the King of Kings in me and I truly believe that the Lord provides for his children. For example right at this moment I’m working at a government institution that you need to have a degree to be in it; however the Lord provided the door for me to get in here. And I believe I will be staying for some time; I don’t know your situation, your dreams but if God has called you to do something else I would recommend doing it because the blessing that comes after obeying the Father is abundant for you and your family. We make our choice after all and God does not work in a heart unwilling to follow and obey his commandments.

Matthew 6:33

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”

Sometimes we forget that the God we serve is the same God that provided for his people the Israelite in the desert. We can’t see beyond our wants and needs and I truly believe with everything in me that God wants to use this new generation but if we don’t stop focusing on what the world wants from us; we will never get to the potential that God has for us. So I might be without a degree, money or fame; however I’m not missing anything because my God provides when there is spiritual need and economic also. I truly admire the people from the old times they walked where God told them and they walked by faith and at the end the Lord provided for them.

P.s. Let’s keep praying for this violence that has risen in this country; after all we are all equal in the eyes of God. My prayers are with those states and countries that are going through violence for example; Venezuela and Charlottesville. Let’s spread the love to our neighbors and communities.

BROKEN VESSEL⚱️🔨💔

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What does God want from you? Or from us? Have you asked yourselves that question.

About four days ago we receive a nice surprise from a family friend; she came to visit from the state of Texas.  And as we were talking a few days ago; she said to me something that brought me an epiphany. She said that she might not be a Christian( repented); but she believes on God and she beliefs that she has a purpose bigger then were she is at right at this moment. As we were talking she kept telling me this stuff with a passion; I could see in her eyes the love for God and for people in need. I kept thinking to myself; ” Lord the purpose you have for this woman is bigger than what we might think or see.” I believe that God will call her; when she is ready to come to his path and from what I seen and know of her; her ministry might be a missionary one.

Luke 5:8

“But Simon Peter, when he saw it, fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O Lord.”

But that’s not the point of this blog post. I came to the realization that people outside of the church or unbelievers think of us( Christ followers) as too neat. I don’t know if you are starting to understand where I’m heading or what I’m trying to say here. When Jesus found the twelve men that were going to become his disciples; men that would later become preachers of the Gospel and fishermen of souls and men. He called men and women that were full of flaws and sin. He did not call people that were too neat or full of themselves. I just love that phrase that Peter says to Jesus;

Depart from me; for I am a sinful man, O Lord.” 

‭This phrase has such a deep meaning imagine this guy falling to his knees after seeing the magnitude of Jesus power and knowing he was the Messiah. Of course he wasn’t without flaws because he did doubt actually all the disciples doubted Jesus at one point or another; however they continue to walk on the path they had chosen even though they were hunt down as animals and tortured; just for spreading Jesus love and word to the needy and proud ones too.

 

All these pieces
Broken and scattered
In mercy gathered
Mended and whole
Empty handed
But not forsaken
I’ve been set free
I’ve been set free

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost
But now I’m found
Was blind but now I see

 

What God want from us; is for us to come to his presence with need. Broken and with our hearts bared. Because how is he going to touch or change our lives or even manifest his presence and power into our lives with such haughtiness and even proudness. He wants hearts that need love, compassion and healing most of all. The word even says it in;

‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭1:28-29‬ 

  “and the base things of the world, and the things that are despised, did God choose you and the things that are not, that he might bring to nought the things that are: that no flesh should glory before God.”

All the miracles that Jesus did were to people that to the standards of most Israelites as garbage. He did miracle to the possessed, the blind, the ill and to the ones in need. Yes, Jesus preached about love and humbleness because back in that time the Israelites and the higher priests were men and women that were filled with proudness and vanity for the things that they had. But they never saw or even cared about the needs of the people that they despised. And that’s what Jesus looked after; and that is what he wants from you and I. For us to be bared( Spiritually) to him; he sees the flaws and he loves us for them. We are his creation and made in his image.

Let’s be humble each day more and more. Let’s forget about the wants of our flesh but let’s remember the wants and needs of our eternal Father.

P.S. Love you Guys and I hope everyone had a nice Happy Fourth of July week. God Bless and talk to you guys next time, don’t forget to share, like or comment on the blog❤️💙❤️💛💕💕😍😍😘😘😘

Let Him Glorify Himself Through You & Me…

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Hello guys today’s post will be a little bit different then the usual ones.When I created this blog, I didn’t know what I was doing; actually I still don’t. However this feeling that I needed to be doing something more kept bugging me. I didn’t know what to do, what it was actually; and out of nowhere this thought came to my mind.

Why don’t I create a blog.? Back when I was younger I created another blog to review non christian books back then. I think I only reviewed one book and  I deleted the blog. Now this blog is completely different, because I’m not doing something for the world. This is for the glory and honor of my God.

Colossians‬ ‭3:23‬

“And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men,”

‭‭Anyways back to the topic, I didn’t know what I was going to write in it, because to be honest I love english but I don’t think I’m that good at it and I just didn’t have anything to write about. But this little voice kept bugging me and I decided to create one; however I told the Lord that he needed to give me the words of what he wanted me to write. Now many of you guys might think that because, of what I write I might not have my struggles or that I’m living a holy life with the Lord; but I’m here to be raw  and honest with you tonight. I’m spiritually weak sometimes it’s hard for me as a christian girl to live his word and commandments in the world today. That doesn’t mean I don’t try my best not to disappoint him and myself. Because sometimes I sin quite often in the way I act, speak or think. This next verse is everything to me when I am feeling ashamed; I know that it’s not just my flesh that I’m fighting against but also that I’m fighting against spiritual being in the spiritual world.

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6:12‬ ‭

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.”

I have struggled a lot most of the time I don’t understand why.? I was raised since I was a child to believe there was a higher being or God;  out there that loved me through thick and thin but at the same time that he was not a God to play with.And I remember that it got hard as I hit my teenage years. I wanted to do everything my friends were doing ; if they were going to dances( no christian stuff) I wanted to go; if they had a boyfriend I wanted one too. However I still had this front or facade as some might call it of going to church; there were times were I just went because,  my parents forced me to go I would just go through the motions. As I got older I got into the literature world. I love reading I don’t know where that came from because when I was in middle school I detested even seeing a book. However what happens next shows you that the enemy can use anyone to sink you deeper and take you out from the purpose of what God wants to do with you. When one of my friends showed me a book that she was reading it was a book that had some kind of erotic feel it and I liked it; back then I had stopped searching for the presence of God and it sunk me deeper in the black hole that was my life. I would go to the library and check out adults book that were not meant for my age to read and from there on it would start the struggle of holiness versus wickedness.

1 John 1:7

“But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”
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This will become a battle that will continue for years to come. I never thought that a simple act would give an opening for the enemy to control my life. It has been hard to let this go; I think mostly because I haven’t let the Lord do his job on me. Most people struggle with drugs or alcohol; for example we have the wife of the prophet Hosea; she would sell herself to the highest bidder. But my addiction was these  type of books that dirty my soul and mind, I felt ashamed and I still do sometimes. I felt as if I wasn’t worthy of him. It’s a daily struggle my passion is reading it’s what I love to do and I plan on writing my own books later on. But I don’t plan to feel that way my whole life for something that just distanced me from his presence in my life. There are times I caved in and I’m ashamed. However there are  times that I have stopped myself. Because I know it’s a door that I let the enemy come through when I wasn’t properly seeking the Lord as I should have. I do have my struggles but, the only one who knows is the one above; even though  there is no shame on letting someone know. But be careful in who you confide ; you will want someone who will help you not bring you down. Most of the time we trust the wrong person and we end up worse than before; see that the person you  tell has a deeply committed life with the Lord or put it in prayer and the Lord will guide you to that person. I’m ashamed to say I didn’t do that and it brought guilt to my life. Be brave and honest with the person you choose after all they will put you in their prayers so that God give  you the strength that you need to come through that trial victorious.

Philippians 4:13

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
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P.S. Let me know in the comments some of your favorites verses of the bible. God Bless & Happy New Year..

Salvation and The Lamb


Have you guys seen the scene where ASLAN(The lion, the witch and the wardrobe) is tied down to the sacrificial table and he is slain; I’m certain that almost everyone has seen it. Well that’s almost the same way that the Lord died, he was a lamb when he got crucified for our sins and future sins. The God almighty had mercy upon us to give us salvation. Even though we struggle daily some more than others we should give thanks to the Lord for the salvation that his sacrifice gave to us. 

Mark 10:45

For even the Son of man came not to be ministered unto, but to minister, and to give his life a ransom for many.

I just love how in this chapter and verse of Mark, it tells you that he voluntarily gave his life as “Ramson”. What does ramson mean to you.? Well the dictionary definition is “a consideration paid or demanded for the release of someone or something from captivity.” We were captive in the clutches of sin; sacrifice was a demended requirement since the beginning of time. Lets take a look back; remember when Seth and Cain did their offering to God; well actually offering can mean a sacrifice if it is a animal offering like seth’s. It continues on following Abraham and Isaac etc… 

Génesis 22:2

“Then God said, “Take your son, your only son. He is the one you love. Take Isaac. Go to Moriah. Give him to me there as a burnt offering. Sacrifice him on one of the mountains I will tell you about.”

‭‭ Now imagine Christ giving his life for millions of people that don’t want to know about him or people that have accepted him and have left his path because of what the world might think of them or the trial is too hard. Do you know how hard it was for him to give that sacrifice; some might say we never asked for that but can you imagine living in the days of Noah and Sodom and Gomorrah actually scratch that; because we are living in those days. 

Now christians nowadays are just eating, drinking and taking every want they have. But have you thought how hard and painful it was for him and even though he was the Son of God he was human; his body was human; he went through a process too. He did not automatically knew everything and wasn’t granted everything because he was God in a human body.

Matthew 1:21

” She is going to have a son. You must give him the name Jesus. That is because he will save his people from their sins.”

It’s the time to give thanks to the Lord for his mercy and for the salvation that his sacrifice gave to our lives. Those it mean that if he comes we will automatically go with him. No; it means that his sacrifice gave us a fresh start when we come into his path we just have to continue to walk and search more of God. I can’t tell you what requirements you need for salvation but I can say to you that if you leave the world behind and accept Jesus Christ as your savior and serve him with your whole heart not looking back toward what was in the world you may be doing what he has asked of you. I hope this can help us reflect on his sacrifice and the salvation that was given to us because of it. 

P.s. God bless every single one of you and I hope his grace and mercy is upon you and your families.

Gods Time….

Time is Everything.

Time is measured with seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years. Time is the essence of our lives, is that constant reminder of our daily living, it reminds us when to sleep, when to wake up and etc… However we as humans rush to do everything as quickly as possible and at the end the results are sometimes things that we end up regretting. Where am I going with this you might ask yourselves; well youth and christians nowadays rush teenagers do things. For example we have youth that get involved in stuff like drugs, sex, alcohol, bullying, depression and much more by the peer pressure, friends and even family.

1. Corinthians;

Do not be deceived:” Evil company corrupts good habits.”

This chapters I want you to try to memorize it; why you might ask.? Because I want you to have knowledge. If you feel like the person that you are friends with or the group that you hang out in school, work or even church are not good for you that they pressure you instead of supporting you in your choice to be a christian try to get you to do stuff that you know is not pleasing to the Lord’s eyes than run. I’m telling you this because bad counsel makes us rush things that we still  are not ready for. I wish someone back then would have told me all of this stuff; I might not have that many mistakes that I regret nowadays.

Some people rush to get married at such a young age; and later on they are getting divorce for various reasons. They might not have been mature enough to handle that big of a responsibility. And it is a big responsibility at the end of that marriage there might be children involved; they are gonna be the ones that will suffer from that separations the most. Instead of waiting for God’s time and that special person that he has for you. Don’t  rush in growing up there still time to enjoy your youth.

Luke 12:31

” But seek the Kingdom of God, and all of these things shall be added to you.”

Have a relationship with God; look for him first. Don’t worry that everything that you want to experiment with will be there later on, but when the Lord feels your are ready for that step. Focus on school,  your ministry or even activities that your  youth group  might have;  be patient because he rewards those who wait on him. I’m proud to be waiting for what he has in store for me; you should too. It’s not something to be ashamed, don’t let the world blind side you with the things that it has or even your emotions because this flesh is weak and you are strong in the Lord. Just ask for guidance, strength and knowledge so that you steps don’t fall because when you get to the top there will be glory waiting for you.

Jeremiah 29:13

” And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.”